BLOGGIE FIVE - I'LL WAIT FOR A MIRACLE

my special angel

2006-06-12T00:49:00.000-07:00

11 june 2006` sunday.

i saw you
i saw you
its like a million yrs of not being able to see you
its just a miracle to be able to talk to you
to see you
to even say a 'hi'
to even say a 'goodbye'
to even receive a tap from you
i just cant stop loving you

my GF asked me if i were to compare 1 and 2 tgh..
who wld i choose.
i tot i forgot 1 long ago and 2 is now part of my life but now i told her its like 50.50.
well 1 has always been part of my memory anyway.. 2 is just part of the recent history.
come on.. stop thinking. lol.
just a minute conver but it blew me to another part of the world
perhaps another part of the sky

iloveyou
imissyou

*i secretly snapped.

i can never forget that smile of urs.
it has been 3-4 long yrs....

--

i slept real late again but this time i had to get up at 10plus jus to meet my GF who is forever late and make me wait and wait........
Ate LJS again then vanda they all came den sat there till 2plus then went to buy vanda's shorts then GF and i had no choice but to walk in the rain to the bus stop.
Met up with pui and took a lift frm her (cab) then went for sec4 farewell.
The programmes as usual then had dinner (miss ho overheard us gossiping bout someone. it was hilarious cos she asked us if we needed her help to ask the other party stuff. lol. fun with her and the rest during dinner.) then waited for the rest for yrs while they clean up then we slack. and GF and i started toking to an ant. lols!
Programmes again then it ended at 9plus but we only left at 10.

THAT WAS WHEN I STARTED BECOMING HIGH!
And i think i laughed all the way frm school till ice cube. lol.
*GF claims she has never seen this mad side of me.hahas.
It doesnt happen all the time. x)

Oh yea.. on the way to e bus stop.. GF was making me luff non stop and making me so happy. i came across 2 lizards and i screamed then GF got a shock and she screamed too!
Lol. Then outside ice cube.. saw a cockroach and i screamed and she screamed again and the ppl arnd us screamed too! Lols!!
Met 'stead there then slacked and ate ice cream. Left about 11plus.
Waited for 315 wid 'stead then waited for 53 frm 1125pm UNTIL 11.58pm.
ONLY TO REALISE THE LAST FREAKING BUS IS 1127pm.
ITS LIKE WTH. ahhhhh.
Luckily i realised or else.... hahaha now i think we r still there. haha!
Somemore saw so many cabs but controlled myself.
OH! and i saw GF's good friend again - the cockroach. lol.
SO hungry nw! :(
SO tired! :((
And i m forcing myself to get up at 730 tmr to go for art at 9am :(
Less than 6hrs of sleep. omg. =/
Plus tmr sha not free so after the stupid lit talk which ends at 130.. i guess i m coming home.
*yawns.

--

after a disgusting soul left my life.
another one comes along.
acting innocent - PUKES.
not once but million of times le.
i guess our eng too chim for ppl to understand alr until must 'huh' in ''blur'' tone.
f you la.
wan to act also cannot
u r the one who ownself wan to start this. dun beg for symphaty in the end.
i guess i really judged things wrngly this time
tsk tsk.

GIRLFRIEND;
I LOVE YOU! ((:

attitude me?wadever.childish!

2006-06-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

I'm seriously bored again.
I wasted the day doing nothing in fact.
Slept at 2am and got up at 11plus i think.
Watched tv.
Uploaded pics.
Laid my art on the table.
Found out there were no scotch tape.
Waited for my dad to buy and bring home (at 8.30pm) .
Alright.
The whole day is almost gone.
Lol.

Well tmr is farewell already and GF and i simply cant make up our minds on what to wear. I think pui will just feel like murdering me cause i keep changing the attire. Lol. x)

I treasure my girlfriends more than anything
I just cant afford to lose them

omfg. it has been....9mths and 5days.

2006-06-10T14:07:00.000-07:00

Omfg. I just realised it has been nine months and five days since i placed that heart on her's and knowing that nothing will be returned in the end. It's like close to one year already. Love not as strong as before but yet it is still going on each day. I hope to forget everything by the end of my sec. sch life. I miss you.

Goodbye Lyrics
by Alicia Keys

Mhmn bye bye

How do you love someone

That hurts you oh so bad

With intentions good

Was all he ever had

But how do I let go when I've

Loved him for so long and I've

Given him all that I could

Maybe love is a hopeless crime

Giving up what seems your lifetime

What went wrong with something once so good

How do you find the words to say

To say goodbye

If your heart don't have the heart to say

To say goodbye

I know now I was naïve

Never knew where this would lead

And I'm not trying to take away

From the good man that he is

But how do I let go when I've

Loved him for so long and I've

Given him all that I could

Was it something wrong that we did

Because others infiltrated

What went wrong with something once so good

How do you find the words to say

To say goodbye

If your heart don't have the heart to say

To say goodbye

Is this the end are you sure

How should you know when you've never been here before

It's so hard to just let go

When this is the one and only love I've ever known

So how do you find the words to say

To say goodbye

If your heart don't have the heart to say

To say goodbye

[Fade out]

ilovemydarls.4.7.

2006-06-10T00:48:00.000-07:00

Eeewww. Like everyone noes. IF i dont like you and you step on my toes - i ll give you hell. IF i like you - i ll perhaps give you more hell if you do that cos IF i like you , why wld you step on me so i guess you wld deserve more hell. Wahahahas. The devil is speaking.

No guts la.
Only know how to act.
Eww.
I didnt know having a boyfriend is for the guy to help to do some backing up.
No backbone.
Only can talk but no actions.
=/

Now the angel's turn.
I guess i am so bored and i m talking to my one and only darling.
Alright - i miss you too! Dont be jealous. ( directed to my 'stead' ) .
- Laughs. xD

Well. Just now i was havin a slight fever. I almost felt like i was dying. I still remember the fever i got.. over ~~you~~.. and it rose so high......

Anyway tmr is SATURDAY! :D
Sleeping day for ME!
I got to start tracing my art tmr or else i think i am dead.
Maybe i ll catch some vcds while i do it - i am still stuck to the academy show.
Watching it over and over again and tearing at all the same scenes over and over again but at least it stops me from thinking of other things. x)
Btw , he is hot! Lols.

Just a message
By shock
Few words
Nothing but friendship
But its sweeter than honey
I love her! awwww...

I knw i can forget you.
I ll make it one day.
I will!
Loads of misses* (:

jean tan? wow. im so scared. come on. u ah lian? ur messing wid the wrng person.

2006-06-09T16:47:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since i had chance to havoc abit. Come on if u claim its contradicting - why not call urself stupid and dumb to not understand things better. If you want me to show u some fucking respect , pls do show some fucking respect to me when u talk. And if you claim you are my friend , does that mean that even if you are right or wrong - i must still say ' u are right. i ll support you ' . Fuck la. Crazy. And pls what is the tagboard for ? to comment or what - leave it blank or smth. Did it state that only so and so can comment.. come on.. i comment and i use my name. Wtf la. -.-

Once again i slept at 1plus. And my brother gave me a shock at 10am when i was asleep. It was like some shock to wake up and that didnt wake me up but made me feel more tired. Eyes freaking pain now. Btw met up with the SADDIST (she doesnt wan to be known as rebecca) . She made me feel like a fool again - forever making me laugh at the msgs of hers at the bus stop. Well, we lunched at pasta mania then went to shop arnd. Bought chocos and some stuff then walked arnd till 3plus then came home. Yawns! I want to sleep! zzzz.

Alright!
AND i'm going out with my stead(shi) next week too! :D
I'm supposed to be nice to her EVERYWHERE (not only in msgs) .
Lol.
I miss her too.

I'm meeting my dearest gf (jacx )on sunday! :D
I miss her*

I'm gg shopping with my darling gf(sha) on monday! :D
So exciting.
I miss her too!

i need cash badly!

080606.

2006-06-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

080606` Thursday.

I just realised that my blogskin resembles nitey's. (: Haha anyway i like the skin now. Hee. Well i got up at 9 today cause my mum had to use the com to type and it was freaking loud.

I dunno why you like picking fights with me
So you think you the adult , you are the mother , you are older
So you can act like a fucker?

Anyway i got ready and went town to meet my mum at 10plus. Saw matt on the way then later my mum made me walk to heeren then later made me walk to elsewhere just to meet her. I was kinda half awake or distracted cos i almost killed myself 3times by not paying attention to the red light. Lol. Anyway, At first kind of pissing cos they werent even letting me shop but keep rushing me. Seriously pissing. Always like that. Then scared what crowd and this and that. Argh! =/ Went to eat then went to wisma to shop! That was when things got better.. they stopped following me behind and stopped rushing me! (: Got a bag and a pair of flats that looked like some genie slipper. Lol. Finally got the two things that i wanted most today! Went zara and i saw the same flats but just with an extra strap and it cost 119 when i bought mine at 29. Lol. Anyway headed to PS after that then shopped abit but never get anything then parted with my mother. She went home and i went to meet my 'stead' and diana at town. (:

Went to cine to get tickets for the show ` the omen. Then went to LJS to eat. Saw vivien! :D Shared a meal with diana then headed upstairs to catch the show. It isnt very fantastic cause all the good people die then when we thought the boy is going to die - the police shot the man instead and the stupid evil looking boy remained alive with the nanny. Not say very scary la but got some shocking scenes. Haha. After the movie, walked to heeren then window-shopped abit then diana left to meet vian. 'Stead' and i headed to taka to walk and window-shop. Ate dinner at the food court then went to walk arnd again. Walked all the way to PS after that and saw phoebe. Walked arnd PS and 'stead' was like treating me like her dog. Lol. then headed home arnd 9 plus 10. Saw joycelyn on the way back. (:

Had fun! :D

Tmr i guess i ll be meeting rebecca to get some chocolates then after that head home for ART! I realised i m not the only lagging behind one. Some haven even photocopy. Some haven even trace also. Haha! x) Anyway sunday will be farewell then out with my darling gf. :D

Tired!
Shall head to bed soon.

090606` Friday.

Lastly;
Happy 16th to JAMIE! (:
Takecare and loads of loves*misses-

layout out. a day out to hlm for fresh air.

2006-06-08T00:55:00.000-07:00

I liked the previous skin alot but still i forced myself to change it. Got so many nice ones but then i still cant decide which one to use so i forced myself to stick to this choice. Lols.
Blogger was down just now - at the wrong timing. (when i was vvv.bored and wanted to blog.)

Have been sleeping real late these days and I spent the stupid day doing art and slacking and indulging into kfc's chicken meal and a step out of the hse.

I was lucky to get the saddist girl to accompany me to heartland at the last minute. =)
KFC-ed.
Bubble-tea.
A walk arnd heartland.
Somehow , i felt like i needed to take a break and head out of the 4 walls yet i dont wish to spend money shopping at town.

The lady at the photocopy shop was nice but her helper was a sucker.

Me: i wan photocopy a1 size.
Her: cannot la. wait la.
- looks at her cos it was like 10000yrs alr -
Her: ur art piece ll jam the machine.
Me: ok then how.
Her: - nags the freaking long story -
Me: ok so how.
Her: - continues her freaking naggy lines -
Me: ok so HOW.
( i was like freaking pisst by her cos she wasnt even answerin my ques and all she does was NAG some fuck. )
*Later on...
Her: you try sticking the pics dwn properly.
Her: or i give u another paper..u go do again.
Me: wad? take out everythin and stick on ur paper. siao.
Me: ok u got scotch tape?
Her: got but here no space.. u go macdonald do la.
Me: siao. at the back got space wad.
Her: - keeps quiet -
*Later on...
Me: - folding the edges in cos she claim it was takin up space and all. -
Her: too thick also cannot.
( i was about 2 flare alr cann. she was actin like some bitch.)
Me: this cannot that cannot.. dont photocopy la!
Her: - keeps quiet -

In the end , the nice lady helped me to photocopy and even charged me lesser. =)

Anyway, tmr i ll be heading down to town with my mum for SHOPPING.
She's broke but she is still bringing me for a small spree!
Awww... ((:

* I so love my GIRLFRIENDS ` Jacx and Sha.

sweet-x-

2006-06-07T12:31:00.000-07:00

Today shall be spent with the dearest INcomplete art layout =/

PS: I LOVE MY PRECIOUS GIRLFRIENDS.

*They simply mean the world to me as they are just so special to me :D

MISSES-

im the girl who does silly things for the one i love.

2006-06-06T19:23:00.000-07:00

theGIRL: who does silly things for the one she loves.

this is just so stupid and silly of me.
doing freaking things for someone who wont appreciate or know.
the feeling is like fuck.

I had fun today with the clique! (:
Anyway i was alone today cause my stupid 'stead' ps me in the mrng so i met jasmine instead. (:
Maths was like super boring but sha , sok and jas kept doing silly things that made me laugh. Lol.
And again - that KMC kept using her huge eyes at me! O_O
After school , we left quickly cos it was gg to rain .
Trained to PS with mich, sok, jas, teow and jaclyn .
Jac left then we wanted go the new cathy but it was raining so heavily so we ended up watching at PS.
` she's the man! :D
Nice show! Should go watch mann! Haha. xD
Well.. time passed so slowly - just like yesterday!
Ate at LJS again bcos of sok then we all bought smth cute then went walking arnd AND arnd until 2pm.
Bought food then headed for the movie.
After the show all of them had to leave so i came home too.
It was great fun with them!` Jas. Sok. Teow. Mich. =)

*love them. <3

Anyway tmr i dont have school liao! But i think i am VERY packed this june. =/ I got art to settle and the mid year part(2) is approaching. =/ I am like postponing my tuition always! This is so bad! Lol. Well i got someone` Ye Ling. to motivate me to study and i hope it works! =) Alright - my effort on trying to piece a final layout last night FAILED. hahaha!

Wed 0706: AT HOME. doing ART and just ART. :(
Thur 0806: SHOPPING with mum. (:
Fri 0906: AT HOME. doing ART and maybe TUITION. :(
Sat 1006: ART again. :(( - must complete layout!
Sun 1106: Mtg GF in town then head down to sch for gb farewell then out late. (:
Mon 1206: Art class in the mrng. Lit seminar in the noon. Shopping with Darling sha in the afternoon. (:
Tue 1306: Lit seminar in the mrng. Art class in the noon. :(
Wed 1406: RESERVED for my 'STEAD' . (:
Thur 1506: NOT FREE again. :(
Fri 1606: RESERVED for my 'STEAD'. (:
Sat 1706: RESERVED for my 'STEAD' but got leadership conference in the mrng 8am-5pm! :(
Sun 1806: OUT for the night with my dearest GF and 'STEAD'. (:
Mon 1906 - Sun 2506: LAST WEEK OF THE HOLIDAYS. :( Time to study! :(
Mon 2606: School RE-open! :( Mid yrs part(2) :(

SO BUSY CANN!
Freakkkkk! :(

Well.. i m off to do my art now.
CIAO!

im the transparent one standing in the crowd

im in pain and its cos of u. so pain yet i mus hide it inside me.

2006-06-05T17:58:00.000-07:00

There were many times where i picked up the phone , created a message but just unable to send it out.
I love those chinese songs with meaningful lyrics but i hate the meaning of them.
I know i must let go this time but i just cant.
Seeing you day by day with a broken heart.. i wish i cld be the one to mend it.
But i know its impossible as ur heart is already filled with her.

When will you appear?
Sigh.

So painful yet i got to hide it from everyone.
I hate smiling when i know i cant.
I hate seeing you in her arms.
I hate seeing that she gets all the attention.
I hate everything that is going on now.
It sucks.
Really.

I cant hold on any longer.
On the verge of breaking down.

Cant you just understand ?

Forced myself out of bed at 7 today JUST to meet shi and take BUS.
Reached before 8 but it was too early cos the teachers were LATE.
Wasted so much time hearing the teachers talk about the papers - B O R I N G .
IF only i told myself NOT to come today. :(

Eng: 49.5 / 100
Maths: 26.6 / 100

Jasmine and i are so fateddd! Lol.
In maths paper 1 - i got 19. she got 20.
In maths paper 2 - i got 29. she got 30.
Total - i got 26.6 and she got 27.3
Its like EVERYTHING I GOT ONE MARK LOWER than her.
Dots. lol.

Went to watch a movie ` the nun. at j8 after school with jacx and shi.
Saw YOONG and DING. woah. luckily i saw or else ... HAHAHA !
Ate at LJS again and i felt so tired again.
In the end i also cant be bothered to eat cos i was too tired and lazy. =/
Walked arnd for like 1hr and the time passed so SLOW.
Saw risha and jac eating then went to watch the movie.` not scary at all.
The stupid nun was so lame.
Jacx wanted to scare me but she scared herself in the end. lol.
Headed home with shi aft the show.

My art isnt moving!
I am too tired and i m kinda pisst and tired to even talk now.

Tmr its either i am going early or i am going to meet the clique for breakfast.
Haha.
I am too lazy.
Lit is so boring and school is just draining me out. lol.
Alright, Shut up. lol
Fran! Pls wake up before you fail .

Tmr i am going to watch movie again`she's the man! :D but this time with the clique or rather HALF of the clique. Sometimes i just wonder why people cant just mix happily with one another. I am so tired of clique splitting - it happens every fucking year. No no no , dont get me wrong. I am not pin pointing anyone out there. Tsk. Anyway was supposed to watch OMEN tmr but some teow person is scared. Lol. Well shall catch it with my 'stead' . Hahas.

060606 TMR.
Lols. xD

--
I seriously cant stand guys.
I wonder how can so many ppl be straight.
I think its going to take awhile before i really become one.
Not hard but i just dont want to.
I dont care if any guy is reading this.
Its like.. its either all guys are like that or only guys at this age.
So every girl must be gentle and act like a girl so that someone ll like them?
OH. too bad i dont give a damn.
Yea.. guys hate girls to say 'fuck' but who cares.. i still go ahead.
So is there a problem or smth that you all r not happy about.
Come on.

They sound more like a sissyfied guy who thinks girls must be this and that and they cant be this or that.
I wonder what century is this.
What the fuck.

hidden feelings

2006-06-04T15:29:00.000-07:00

Finally i couldn't take it any longer and i just blurted it out to someone.
Just as what i expected - her reaction was rather cute and couldnt believe it.
Somehow i m stuck here ; wondering what step should i take next.
A step away from you or a step closer to you.

While clearing the books yst , i came across that box of letters you gave me during vday. Opening it and flipping thru it - i realised how silly i was in the past or rather how silly i was 2yrs back. I am thankful that i ve left that painful memory but i just wld like to tell you - it was indeed a sweet memory of mine.

Sweet talks wont get you far. (:

She can tell me how impt and special i am to her yet she didnt know how to treasure it. Those beggings and tears were worth after all. Now i feel that i ve done my part and i no longer brood over it. I ve gotten over it and i no longer hate you but that doesnt mean i ll be stupid to return back to the old route. You ll always be that special memory and friend of mine. (:

I hope one day you will understand why am i ignoring or rather just living my own life. I used to have those stupid thoughts but then i realised what has happened will no longer be the same again. I hate those stupid promises and lies. You think that the world of internet wont bring me far or do you think that i m stupid enough to not understand you and your inner feelings. I guess the stupid one after all these yrs is still you.

I hate you saying this and explaining this but doing that. Once again , sweet talks wont get you far and lies wont bring you further. What irks me the most is those lies that keeps coming out from your mouth. And yea.. i am not stupid. Perhaps you will just be that special memory of mine too that i know i wont forget. After all ; i know i was the cause of changing you into such a person.

Just as i m thinking ; i did take a step far away from you.
Its painful and you never knew that.
Those words ; piercing straight into the heart.

imissyou*`;

Alright this is so obvious;
I am talking about three different people. Lol.

I've been dragging my art and i am so tired of cutting. :( A1 size! Omfg! Someone just has to save me. Hmm. I am hungry! Anw my mum bought me food! (: Well i seem so packed next wk.. Tmr go school check papers then tue got lessons then going out with clique to watch movie! ` ghost show and i hope they change their mind. lol. Then thurs will be shopping with my mother! wahahahahahs xD i hope she doesnt break any promises this time.

Btw.
Tmr i m taking the bus to school!
Such a miracle. lol.

=)

=) cleaning of bks. chinese os down! hahahahhaa!

2006-06-03T15:33:00.000-07:00

Who invented the thing called 'blogging' ?

I'm tired.
Woke up feeling like my body was __ (fill in the blank urself) .

Anyway i'm the midst of clearing my room (:
OR RATHER just the books that i brought home from under my desk the other time.
I realised that it's time to do some clearing or else my room floor will look like some junk place with all the books thrown all over the place.

And one thing that makes me happy is - when i start to clear the books and i see chinese books lying around , i feel a little delighted cause at least now i know one subject is down! All i need to do is wait for the results.

Anyway i ve been cutting the stupid art pictures since mrng ....
I'm tired of holding the scissors and snap snap snapping !

Btw, I'm supposed to start tuition last week but i ve been dragging and dragging ....

Pictures:
1. In the midst of clearing.
2. Still in the midst of clearing.
3. The messy books.
4. The empty table prepared ready for my papercut.

NOTE:
The time is sooo cool. Lol.
3rd june.
3.33pm.
Haha! (:

2nd june. late entry.

2006-06-02T23:47:00.000-07:00

I'm dead hungry.
I'm supposed to sleep now.
Yawns!`

Brother ordering macs and i said i didnt want.
Now i regret!
I am feeling so hungry!

The term ' depression ' didnt visit me today!
Hence, i can be called a Happy kid! (:

extra lessons again. fun and more fun. (:

2006-06-02T20:58:00.000-07:00

More and Moreeeeee! ;;

Finally the last day of the week already!
Had maths as first lesson so couldnt be late so i woke up at 630 and guess what i was ready by 710. Cabbed to sch with 'stead' again. The taxi driver's horn gave me a shock cann.. early mrng horn so loud at me somemore. lol. Reached sch and saw KMC walking there alr. lol. Boring maths and she kept staring at me and her eyes are like so... lol. After maths; GF , Stead and i went to sgoon gdn macs to eat breakfast and gave chem a miss. (: The time passed so slow and we decided to take a bus to somewhere else. In the end we took 73 to amk then went mos burger- just to take pictures! LOL. Cos by the time we reach , it was already 1130 then 12pm got lit. Haha. On the way back; we all almost died cos of GF's way of crossing the road. lol. Anyway on the way to sch , we saw rajah and we were like shocked. Haha! Lucky we told her we woke up late. Lol. At sch , had to race with miss ho to the E.hall somemore. So tiring and the weather was so hot! Lucky she ownself late for lessons. Hee. - Cabbed home with mich and all the art papers. (:

I just realised i only had a small piece of bread in the mrng then breakfast at macs and then i didnt touch any food until 8plus - dinner. Hungry until full. Lol.

I ve got art to do.
I am bored! and lazy! :(

Imissyoumoreandmoreeachday*

Alright -
Pictures of the day :
1. my 'stead' (:
2. my girlfriend (:
3. my girlfriend again (:
4. the three of us (:

THE END! =)

you.

2006-06-01T22:26:00.000-07:00

The reason is You.
You were the cause of it.
Do You even know.

I know You wont.
Its alright cause i know everything will be over soon.

Tonight i ll no longer drop tears for You.

shi became my ''stead'' . ahaha. BAD MOOD - fucking dad.

2006-06-01T19:40:00.000-07:00

I've got a new 'stead' now but she is a flirt and she bluff me that she and her 'wife' break up lerr.
And she say i flirt with my GF somemore. TSK. xD

Well last night was terrible but it ended off well.
Thanks to my dearest 'stead' for those laughing
and to my dearest yong who i cld count on always without fail! (((:

Cabbed to sch with shi again.
Didnt expect to go so late! one hour late somemore. heh.
Whole day had sciences - chem and bio.
Had lunch at hlm macs with teow then met up with jasmine and diana.
Then they went suntec and i came home.
Raining and Raining but it was nice strolling in the rain. (:
`yawns!
Supposed to go photocopy at 4plus but i delay until 5plus then somemore i bathe so slow. lol.
In the end i spent 1and 1/2 hrs at the CC photocopying.. almost felt asleep somemore. =/

Need to come up with a freaking final layout by tonight.
I just feel like sleeping now! :(
Somemore tmr cant come late cos first lesson is maths and she ll lock the door at 8am. =/

--
Will you just leave me alone.
I didnt even ask you to care.
If you ve any fucking probs with ur mother or wife or what shit ?
that is ur fucking business.
Dont come into my room and just pick a quarrel with me.
I am not living here for u to vent ur fucking anger on.
Did i even ask u to care for my art or things?
I mess up my room is my business and i didnt even ask u to clear.
Did i ? oh i did? Fuck off la.
So what if i lost the earring - that is mine.
I just asked u if u saw it . did i even ask u to bother or what shit.
NO.
If i want to buy another , i will . i didnt even ask u to go and bother bout my life.
so just fuck ur ass off and leave me alone for goodness sake.

2006-05-31T20:45:00.000-07:00

Call me mad or whatsoever.
I dont care.

Depression.
Whatever.
Just go away.

I thought you cld understand me.
But i guess i was wrong.
Its saddening to know what has happened was so true.
Tears falling yet cant be controlled.
Fuck.
Whatever it is...

I wish i cld count you like how i cld always.
I wish i was wrong.
I wish
I wishhhh ...

Another night of tears?

5mths gone. o lvl chinese over. =/ i miss u.

2006-05-31T18:20:00.000-07:00

I'm really very lazy to blog.
Those few days came back late then online awhile then go sleep.
The worst thing is - i also forgot i had a blog. Lols.

Monday.
-Chinese O levels.
The worst mann. I was so stressed and scared until i cldnt sleep properly on sunday night.
Anyway its over alr. Now got to wait till august to see the result. =/
Didnt turn out as hard as expected but still it cant be that simple. Lol.
Purposely went late for 'assembly' in the mrng cos the paper only started at 830 so what for i go at 730 when i can come later.
Went shopping with beccateow after that.
Had to cab home then rush down to find my mum again cos i forgot i have no cash with me. lol.
Met becca then went to eat at cine.
That was the only time i almost died mann. - didnt eat since mrng cos the exam didnt have a long break in between. =/
Shopped from heeren to paragon to the hotel opp heeren then to taka to wisma then bishan.
Cabbed home.
Lol. Five hrs plus of walking. Tiring!
Anyway the GSS wasnt as gd as expected and those wallets and bags werent fated with me. lol.
Anyway i dont even care now. lol.
In the end , got 2 tops.
Saw so many bags but didnt want also. Lol. cos all is white. Nice but ..... nvm. lol.
Shall go shopping with my mum next week (:

Tuesday.
- Extra lessons day one.
Had art as the first lesson - 8am! BUT i didnt go. haha.
Woke up at 730 then bathed till 815 and only left hse at 840.
Met my GF , fangying and meishi for macs breakfast.
At first i tot shi reach le then i wanted to take cab but luckily i didnt cos when i took the bus - i reached the same time as her.
Haha imagine i take cab - i ll be waiting like siao.
And GF and fang reached same time too. - first time mann. lol.
Had breakfast and for the first time i felt so lazy to eat or do anything. Just felt like sleeping.
After art was SS and it started at 10 but we were still eating at 10 and reached sch only at 1030. (:
Slacked and daydreamed thru out SS and lit.
Went k-box with GF and fangying at amk after school. then shi came later on.
It was super funny when chris gave me GF's hp without her knowing then she tot chris really took her hp home. lol.
And GF scared me twice cos of a butterfly! Once is outside sch. Second time was the butterfly was sitting on fangying's shoulder. LOL.
Went high before shi came. lol super funny. then GF say after shi come, we mus be quiet and ladylike . lol lol.
Sang and waited for the food for hrs then played arnd till 8 but fangying left at 630.
Came home with shi and GF just left without telling us what buses to take. haha and the 62 was sooo long.
Home at 9plus. so tired. headache. /
Planned to not come sch on wed [today] but then sok kept asking me to come cos i need to see ong for my o lvl art or else i ll die.

Today.
- Extra lessons day two.
Woke up at 710 then was thinking sho take bus or not but then decided to meet shi and take cab. lol.
Reached sch at 8 - we were not late. heh. (:
That stupid G* woman gave me a big shock in the mrng and i almost tripped.
And during recess i saw her again and she stared at me. =/
Nvm. Left 6mths more and then byebye to her! (:
Had biology then art then maths.
Biology was full crapping with sok and becca.
Art was alright. 1hr plus only and she was so happy to see me cos i went to see her without her calling me.
She praised me! Haha! :D
Met jasmine after art then we were all thinking to go for maths or not.
In the end after all the thinking up and down - we stayed back for maths. lol.
It was actually quite fun lar(:
Went for macs lunch with Jas after sch at sgoon garden.
Ate and talked all the way until 330 then left.
Funnnn and more funnnn :D

Lit and english is due today but i also never do or hand in. (:
Art should be done by tmr then fri last chance to see her but i am still here - online. (:

Planned to not go school on fri and tue but then i think i m still going.
Anyway hols lessons are so slack - we walk in any time we want. we come if we want. lol.
Btw , So many ghost movies out and jas , sok , mich are all asking becca and i to go and watch. =/

I must concentrate on my art this whole week then can cut cutting or else i think i can just go and die.
A1 size!?! haha. stupid o lvl art. =/

--
Imissyoulikecrazybutiknowwhatisrightandwhatiswrong
Listeningtoasongandyesiamjustlikewhatitsaid
-Lovingyoulikeafool
Youdontseemtoknowanythingandidontseeapointinlettinganyoneknow
Itspainfulbutsweetandnicehoweveriknoweverythingwillendsoon
Ioncehopedfor*butiknowlastyearislastyearandthisyearissodifferent
andnowicanseethat*hasreallybecomeapasthistorytomecosnowihave**.
Nearyetfar.

Friendship first.
Love second.
(:

Its painful but i ll overcome it one day (:

another test on friendship. this time i mus succeed. i ll not lose her to that so called lesbian crush of mine. so gentleman and lovely yet i wont wan

2006-05-30T22:01:00.000-07:00

This time i am going to go thru another test on friendship.
Friendship or love?
I once chose a wrong step but this time i am not going to ever choose it wrong.
This friendship is far more impt than a love.
I am sure and certain this time.
She will be gone in a few yrs time but the friendship with the other can last for a lifetime.
Feelings will fade but the friendship with the other wont.

I ll proudly announce one day that i have chosen friendship (:

I ll blog another day.
I am too lazy! (:

Holidays here but i have so much things to do.
Stuck at art.
Stuck at the stupid upcoming exams.
Extra lessons.
AIYA! All r rubbish. lols.

headache -cum- fever.
Gdnite.

terribly stressed and feelin like fuck.

2006-05-28T19:21:00.000-07:00

leave me alone once and for all'

nobody understands.
even if the tears fall continuously.
no one can help me.
the feeling sucks terribly.
this sucks vvv badly.
everything sucks.
no one even understands.

this is fucking shit.

one more day to chinese os. i mus do it.

2006-05-28T00:35:00.000-07:00

tmr is monday again.
shucks.
but there is a good point - i get to shop till i drop.
i hope some money ll drop from the sky on monday.
lol.

anw after reading GF's blog - i just rmbed she told me to watch this variety show on fri nite.
The butches all so shuai cann. or maybe only a few lar.
But got two is cute and shuai. (:
Just that they turn into girly image that time - oh mann.
I did rather NOT see. lol.

okay i ve watched vcds the whole day! and did 15chapters of cloze passage.
Left 5 more and then i ll complete the book.
I didnt noe i wld be able to complete all 50exercises in just a few days. =/

Time to sleep.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

e GFs patched.`

2006-05-27T12:09:00.000-07:00

'lets break up!'
'okay!:D'

This is how silly things went.
Anyway,
My darling sent me this just only.

'hey darling..:) can we patch up. i miss you:D'

LOL!
I was stunned by that stupid sms of hers and yet i wanted to burst out laughing.

Alright.
Lets cut all this crap before ppl mistake us for being crks.
After all - i ve been mistaken as her stead recently by a kuku friend of hers. =/
And to add on , those ppl yst just reminded me of my stupid mistaken identity 2,3yrs back.
Lol.

-

I'm bored.
I'm bored.

I shall head off to do chinese now. (:

up at 7.

2006-05-27T08:25:00.000-07:00

I'm freaking hungry but i am too lazy to go and make breakfast myself. Alright everyone look at the time now - 7.30am. Gosh! This is so early, i also dunno why am i awake so early. Well , i was sleeping soundly then suddenly i woke up at 6.50am! cause i felt smth and then yarh.... Then later when i wanted to go back to sleep - i COULDN'T. So here i am. Still as lazy as yesterday but nvm , i ll try to blog some crap out.

I decided to go on a diet. HAHA! I want to eat yet i dont want to grow sideways so i have no choice but to stop being lazy and start doing some exercise. I know it is very hard to come true but i hope it will one day! I just hate these few weeks cause i keep controlling myself from eating and i eat so little at home - and i get hungry so easily. lol

To start off with yesterday:
Last day of school! Yeah right! I still have lessons from 8am - 1.15pm everyday until 6th of june. Anyway whole day was checking the papers then later moving of tables and chairs to the hall. Von and i cheated - we didnt want our tables so we got everything from the hall. Nice , clean and stable. (: At first thot i sitting in the front then later i realised i am right at the back! Last girl some more. wahahahaha xD One row away from my GF somemore. lol. (: Anyway had briefings and stuff then left for bishan with GF , Fangying , meishi and chris. First had to follow fy to the bank and the queue was so longggg! GF and i went to shop one round and she was still queuing up. lol. Had yoshi for lunch after so long! ((: Walked all the way to some other end of bishan for smth? then walked back. lol. Went to the macs at the interchange there to study. Kept changing seats - so funny and the worse thing was i go and open smth i not supposed to. LOL! Meishi's reaction was super shocked!lol. Then chris also saw but GF never see. x) Studied a little then less than an hour , chris had to leave so left meishi and jacx. Studied and played like some kid. GF and i were 'breaking up' again and it was super funny. LOL. we were laughing so much for dunno what reason but over some stupid lame things. =) Then left around 7plus then took a bus home with meishi and we saw a couple! LOL.

And! I saw some censored thing. haha.
So mean of me. lol.
And i saw steff again. haha.

Left 2 more days to my chinese Os.
I'm so scared lar.. cause my standard is only B now. =/

`Feeling terribly hungry now! :(

a bad rainy day!

2006-05-25T17:49:00.000-07:00

Happy 16th to ALTHEA! (:
Takecare and all the best!
Loves*

I think today's weather suck.
Or it's we are UNlucky.

Left class and it was SUNNY.
Five mins later - DOWNPOUR.
Waited awhile for the rain to lessen then faster walked out and then in less than 10mins - DOWNPOUR again.
Waited for bus then took bus down to sgoon garden macs.
Five mins later after we reached - SUNNY.
Ate and chatted then decided to leave - suddenly DOWNPOUR again on our way to the bus stop.
Waited for more than half an hour cos all the 315's were not going to int.
In the end , jasmine's dad gave me a lift to the 53's bus stop. (:

The day was boring.
As usual - chinese chinese chinese.
Big bird talked to us after school bout the Os.
For once she sounded nice and encouraged us to finish the race.
No scoldings or sarcastic words. Lols!

And sha actually said to me this;
'' fuck her lar! she took what medicine?! suddenly become so nice!''
Lol.

I want an A2 for chinese!
Or perhaps a B3 - Which i dont really want! :(
Nothing lower than B3 please! :((

Last night was terrible but rather funny.
I was cheering my darling gf up and teaching her to smile and stuff.
In less than one hour , it became the other way round.
HAHA!
And she used exactly the same method i used on her to use on me.
And she got help! lols.
Well well;
Lots of THANKS to the both of you for that cheering up! ((:
`Meishi and Jacx :DD
And to Meishi; for all the laughter and joy! Heex.
And to Jacx; now i know why we two are GFs already! Lols.

So many doubts yet no one can help me solve such doubts..
Hmms.

And i seriously hate pple who call and hang up umpteen times.
And its seriously sickening when you pick up and say hello and then they put down.
Argh.

Yst i was telling GF how much i didnt like to cab to school with this someone and guess what - today i had to cab down with her. Hmms.

Finally had my lunch with jasmine after so many broken promises.
Macs again but nvm.
It was funnn chatting and eating with her. xD

FOUR MORE DAYS!

2006-05-24T21:43:00.000-07:00

I just feel like crying!

depressed

2006-05-24T19:59:00.000-07:00

Not even the most true friendship can be trusted.
I guess i am a little not right in the mind.

Each night when i watch those discs , i just feel like letting those tears flow.
It does work sometimes.

chinese study session with jacx shi chris (:

2006-05-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

Woke up early today but still.. i somehow was delayed so cabbed to sch with caishan again.
Had chinese again!
I hate the paper2s they give us cos all so hard one.
Had checking of papers at e.hall and we were playing games again ; like that day. lols.
Had chapel and we played a prank on sokky! lols!

After sch,
headed to sgoon macs with GF , meishi and chris.
GF and i took the bus down and they walked. lols!
Ate lunch then studied chinese.
At first was a little slack then got better. more improvement today (:
And i saw michelle goh! :D
Bought ice cream to eat and shared with my ''pet'' . LOL.
Continued to study then left 6plus.
Today was quite fun - also dunno why. Haha!
Cabbed home with meishi.

I shall head off to do my art now.
Boring! i need serious help now but no one can help me. :(

Tmr i ll finally be having lunch with my nu-er after all the postponing!
Hahaha!
(:

;; Five MORE Days! `

quiz time!

2006-05-23T18:15:00.000-07:00

Alright!
As requested by VAL (((:

Instructions:
1. the tagged victims have to come up with eight different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. if you are tagged the second time, there's no need to do this again.
5. lastly, most importantly, HAVE. FUN.DOING

Alright , let's start off. (:

GENDER: male :D

POINTS: 1. loving. 2. caring. 3. sweet. 4. understanding. 5. dress smartly. 6. honest. 7. trustworthy. 8. we must be able to communicate and connect well. ((:

VICTIMS: jacx , jace , jean , meishi , joce , rebecca.t , jiayu , cihui x))

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The day was boring!
Chinese chinese chinese chinese! =/
I dont hate chinese but now i m going crazy over chinese.
The papers were so difficult- esp. paper2 and the class was so dead.
Like all falling asleep soon.

Cabbed to school with caishan. (:

Shopping or a failure in chinese Os?!
Ofcos i ll choose... to PASS chinese. :D
I ve thought it over.. all those ppl tempting me - No! I m not shopping on the 26th but only after the Chinese Os. x)
If that bag and wallet is meant to be mine - it ll be still there on the 29th afternoon - or else it is not fated to be mine! Haha!

` Life still goes on.

I am not sure if i can trust you.
All those words seem to be lies.
*

2006-05-23T18:12:00.000-07:00

Suddenly i'm missing loads of pple. :(
[not in order]

- my dearest working pal ` jiayu! (:
- my frens who ve graduated ` val! alisa! and all those cca mates and friends! (:
- my girlfriends.

2006-05-22T21:39:00.000-07:00

when the level of stress rises
the tears just flow endlessly
sometimes just too hard to control

im sad but im forced to smile
im sad but im forced to make everyone arnd happy
who understands

when the day is tiring
one hopes for a peaceful time at home
but at times the people arnd just cares for themselves or others
when one ever get a peaceful time where one can be himself/ herself.

2006-05-22T19:35:00.000-07:00

This is fuck alright!
I just dont know how to start off.
I think if this is the old me , i will just flare up and scold the bitch back but i actually controlled my anger. There is smth wrong with me.
That art woman went to complain to the form teacher bout eileen and i.
So what? At least we put in the effort to stay back and complete that fucking piece of shit even when i knew im gg to fail cos i dont have prep work.
If i dont even care..i wont even stay back.
And if i m alone ..i think i ll just walk off long ago.
Eh hello - so what if you are teachers .. that doesnt mean you are right.
Fuck you!
So you want our prep work? Fine . we ll give you.
So what if you threaten to call parents.. do we look like we are going to take art next time.
Giving lessons in life? I USED TO like you but after today, i just find you a Fucking bitch.
Yes. I love to give an attitude face.. why not consider isit only towards ppl i m fed up with or do i just have that face. If i like you , i ll smile. But so sorry i DONT.
Telling us that u are busy? Eh hello. we are busy too.
SO WHAT?!

I just cant be bothered to flare much now.
And bcos of that fucker.. the rain came down and it got so huge!
Want us to apologise? No way. Eileen and i just walked off and went home.

Drenched like chickens.

Headache is back.

Fuck you!

English oral was alright. Just a little 'rusty' when i speak. Miss poon was nice (:

I bet she is going to scold us tmr but we dont even give a damn.
Waste of my freaking time.

nth la.

2006-05-21T22:04:00.000-07:00

'' Girls are Girls. Boys are Toys. "
That was what i saw on a T-shirt and told the GFs.
Lol.
Btw i forgot to add on yst's post.
I saw so many nice tees and nice bags and nice wallets... i had cash... buttttt.... i didnt buy any.
Anyway the GSS is starting on the 26th of may and i have alr planned! (:
Due to the STUPID chinese Os, i cant head down on the first few days so rebecca and i are heading dwn after the chinese Os!
Yayyyy!
And i already booked my mum during the june hols too.
I promised her to study hard and she said ok she ll take leave and bring me on a spree! (((:

Sometimes parents can be nice.
Sometimes parents can act like fuckers.

Example 1.
Mum: where are you. so late alr. come home quick!
Daughter: its only seven plus.
Mum: i dont care.
-opens the door with a black face when the daughter gets home at NINE-

Example 2.
Mum: where are you. dont come home so late.
Daughter: eating dinner. wont be back too late.
Mum: alright.
-opens the door with a smile when the daughter gets home at TEN-

Notice the timing?
Dont you find it so contradicting.
Bad mood then ask the daughter come home early , good mood then dont even care if it is a little late.
The worse thing, sometimes my mum gets a little crazy and this happens.
TSK.
Simply cant stand it.

My msn is mad.
Anyway i have been having a bad headache and slight fever since afternoon.
After all the delaying.. i only did 4 sketches for my new topic.
It has been three mths since i last drew smth for art - seems a little wierd.

Anyway.. i completed only a few discs of the new show cos my headache made me feel so sick and i went to take a nap.

Alright.
I m feeling better but i shall head to bed.

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I guess i am really used to freedom already.
Now i just hate commitment.

pictures taken on 19may and 20may 2006 (:

2006-05-21T13:24:00.000-07:00

190506
Snapping and having fun in class - just before SS paper.

Jasmine and i*

Two retards and i*

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Having a wonderful time together.

Dearest risha and i*

My Darlings*

My GIRLFRIEND and i*

My Darling and i*

I SAW WEILONG IN HEEREN TODAY! AFTER 5MTHS 22DAYS SINCE 29DEC05! OMG I WAS SHOCKED BUT I LOVE THE WAY HE SMILED AND WE BOTH SAID HI! AWWW. LOVIN HIM*

2006-05-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

I waited for five months and twenty-two days just to see you again ;;

Was it fate that made us meet again after such a long time?
In the past, we two will always be in town but always one at north and one at south.
I used to go town often and hope that one day i ll meet you there.
I used to pray hard that we cld meet up.
I used to wish so much that one day i cld bang into you.
But none of them happened...
We got tgh and we splitted.
We parted at that very second and i never saw you again.
I prayed for many things to happen but none came true.
But today something just came true - i met you again!
It was that face that made me smile immediately and greet you with a friendly HI.
I guess it was all fated.
I waited patiently for 5mths and 22days and it happened.
I had high hopes but soon i just left it to fate and one day [today] it actually came true.
(((: - smiles widely.

In case this is so confusing.
To those who know about it - i met him in heeren today. (:
It was a friendly 'meet' .
GF wanted to see smth so we walked into this shop and there was this guy staring at me then when i looked at him.
He seems so familiar and i was like staring for a few secs then i realised it was him.
I guess he wasnt very sure if it was me and we two smiled immediately and greeted each other with a friendly HI.
I treat him as a very special friend and i m actually veryyyy happy to see him again.
And another thing brightened me up - he all of a sudden sent me a gd night msg on my way home.
I guess i ve to admit , i m a HAPPY child now ; guess not only now but today! ((:

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Alrights now back to blogging about my saturday.
I was about to leave the hse but stupid jacx called me and said , she haven even bathe.
So i watched tv for about 45mins until she called then left to meet her.
Met cerlyn then took a bus down with her to sgoon mrt then parted.
Train-ed down to dhoby ghaut then missed 3trains to somerset.
Reached at the same time as GF then we headed to cine.
Took neos which were niceeeeeee* ; esp. today (((:
Headed to eat lunch at LJS again then walked all the way to wheelock's building behind just to catch a cab.
It was such a hot weather and hard to catch cab.
Took a cab down to the RELC place then headed in.
The lit talk was so boring. - also dunno what he talking then there was this 'hiao' bitch who was not say pretty cos her lips spoilt everything!
Haha! and we were bitchin bout her and GF and i were bitching bout this so called butch that looks super ugly and she looks exactly like that person's fren - i think it is the same person. =/
After the talk.. sha jacx teow mich and i walked along the road hoping to catch a cab but then we walked like few streets then finally caught a cab.
It was super funny cos had 5ppl and the driver dunno cos he nt lookin den we all sneak in then when he find out alr too late. LOL.
So he kept asking us to bend dwn in case the traffic police catch. HAHA and sha was the one hiding all e way.
Saw cindy they all then we kept waving in the cab but they all never see. Lol.
Headed to walk heeren after that. and parted with mich and teow.
Saw PL lites and yupp.. i saw him. (:
Decided to walk arnd taka then we were like having those girlfriends walk and chatting and enjoying the time. :D
Seriously i miss this two darlings so much! <3
Headed to wisma after that and jacx embarassed herself by dropping perfume bottles - lucky never break. HAHA.
Then went topshop and find sha's friend. Sha embarassed herself there twice also. LOL.
Saw chongster there too.
Parted with sha after that then headed off with jacx to cine.
Wanted to go TCC but ended up in cafe cartel.
Was so hungry and the soft crab and prawns set was niceeee but it was so filling!
Hahaha.
Headed off to j8 after that then jacx went to try on smth then half way i had to leave.
Home -10plus.

My legs , feet , shoulders are ALL aching so badly!
Lols x(

Btw, i spent 100plus on dramas [vcds] - inclusive of last wk's one.
Spent 70plus last wk and 108 this wk.
HAHA
But i m saving up to top up my bank cos its running low and my mum is gg madddd!
Lols!
Well .. its okay to me cos i m enjoying the shows. Haha!

Alright.. i thought it is alr 12plus 1am but its only 11.58pm.
Lol.
Chinese Os in 8days time!
Great.
I hope i can do well.
I shall practice!
I must score! (:

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` i know one day fate will bring us together again.
No matter if it is another 5mths and 22days.
I don't mind.
*loads of misses.-

i dont understand you.

2006-05-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder if i understand you.
i guess i dont and not many do.
i hate wondering
but i hate lies even more.

i guess things dont work out all the time
and it is not exceptional this time.

bye.

i'm bored.

2006-05-20T09:56:00.000-07:00

I'm still upset over my results.
But thanks to someone who cheered me up before my SS paper.
Haha!

Let's talk about yesterday first:
Had to come to school at 725am when the SS paper was at 1130am.
We went to our own class to slack!
Kind of quiet cos only had risha , yuen , teow , mich , sok , eileen.g , jas , winz and i.
Wanted to do revision but we started talking and doing nonsense till 830am then we went for recess then came back and continued to listen music and talk crap till 11am.
Then! We started to sit down and study but there wasnt enough time left laaaar! Lol.

Btw, after recess we hid sok's bag inside eileen's bag.
It was super hilarious. (:
Cos we managed to squeeze it inside. Haha!

Snapped pics and talked like there was no end.
I like. (:

I didnt really study SS but i still managed to crap nonsense out on the essay part.
The source was hard!
I had to like read and read then try to write nonsense.
Haha!

Supposed to stay back do mid yr art with rowen but we all left then left ong waiting in the library. I know it's bad and mean but we just dowan to do mid yr art.
Boring! yawn~

Cabbed down to PS to catch the show 'over the hedge' with mich and teow.
Went to eat LJS then walked arnd till 3.40pm.
Went toilet and i saw this familiar butch and then when we went to buy food , i saw her again and when we entered the cinema - she was sitting infront of us. And it was super irritating as she kept turning and looking - even after the show. =/

Headed to town to accompany teow eat her noodles.
Then headed back home with mich.

Alright i gtg or else i ll be late.
Anyway that dear gf of mine is ALWAYS late. x)
Well;
Gonna have a lit talk then shopping with my darlings! (:

roses pic- nth to blog la!

2006-05-20T00:02:00.000-07:00

2006-05-18T19:52:00.000-07:00

I'm having a very bad headache now. :(
Going off to watch TV soon and then i think i ll head to bed at 8.45pm. (:
Tmr is SS but guess what, i have not studied.
I did so badly this year.
I did badly in term one and now term two , it is even worse!
Just saw the PTS system thing, TERRIBLE results. =/
As usual , i passed chinese lit and art.
And English i failed the second time - 49.8
I have never failed english and this year i failed it.
Maths , humans and sciences - dont need to see, i also know is fail badly.
All is like 17.9 ? 21.9? 18? LOL.
Must well dont do the exams. =/

I'm sad.
I'm sad.
I'm sad.

Well today's english was hard i think.
And maths was TERRIBLE!
I knew i didnt have time to complete it so i gave up half way.
I started to clean my table when everyone was rushing thru the last few mins.
I'm so proud of it.
Many of us didnt complete it and i left one entire question blank - 12marks.
The rest also confirm do badly.
Sighhhh. Tsktsk.
Ong talked to us bout mid yr art again.
I dont think we are going to do.
Dunno.

Headed to eat at sgoon gardens with GF.
Decided to go mac to study SS.
Called chris to come but she never reply. Lol.
Supposed to study but we ended up stoning and gossiping and looking at a small boy.
He is so cuteeeee... wanted take a pic of him but he kept moving.
And there were this few PL sec2s beside us - disgusting!
Lol. This girl.. i kept saying she was so ugly.
She acted like those kind 'wan throw herself at boys' then she wore nail polish , ring and stuff ...
BUT BUT BUT her face spoilt everything! HAHAHA! x)
Left at 4 then came home and watched tv.

My head is spinning like madddd.

Talking about yesterday:

It was booger-owner day!
One year and two months!
Happy BOOGER-OWNER day to my dearest!
iloveyou* ((:

Had chinese paper2 - i didnt have enough time cos i wasted too much time on the 1st compre. But i finished on the dot. Lol.
Headed to hlm macs to eat breakfast with GF , meishi , jean , eilane.
After eating went to the CC opp with GF to study but then we went back to macs aft 5mins.
Studied abit then chris came and we studied till 2plus.
I didnt do much cos i couldnt stand maths! =/
Went to hlm to walk then GF had to go so chris and i went back to macs to study till 5.
Went back to hlm to buy smth then left.
Had tuition and i was falling asleep - sooo tired!
I went to bed at 8.45pm ((:

Anyway tmr i will be going out with the saddist and michelle.
Saturday will be having lit talk then out with the GFs.
:D

youaremysugarrr*
iloveyou-

exam day2 . awwwwwwwww i love you baby!

2006-05-16T18:24:00.000-07:00

I had no choice but to cab down to school today with phoebe.
All bcos i kept switching off my alarm clock.
Dragging the time from 5am to 6.30am.
Lol.
And this cabby - i wish after he dropped us off , he wld meet with an accident and die.
He simply sucks. He thinks i m just a student then want to scold me. So what - i scolded him back.Damn him. I ask him wait awhile , he NAG NAG NAG so i asked him to wait awhile and shut up then after that i ask him go sgoon north ave1 - he say he dunwan bcos always got jam so he dun care, he wan stop on the main road and i scolded him again. I am paying him for waiting , for going thru the jam - so why he is talking so much. Talk so much then dont drive a cab . Drive his own car then dont need to fetch passengers. I hate cab drivers who complain so much.

English paper1 was alright.
I did it on 'prejudice'.
Hope i didnt do anything out of point.
As for the report writing- hope i didnt get anything wrong.

Maths paper1 was a killer and yet i studied so hard for it.
I know i will fail it and do badly.
Sigh!

Supposed to go study with GF and chris again but GF just cancelled it and it kind of made me pisst for a second cos its like i told jas to go home without me and now she just talk on the phone and just cancel it. Luckily i manage to run after jas and winz or else am i supposed to go home alone. Whatever. Now its okay cos i dont think anyone knew i was irritated for that second. (:

Chinese paper2 tmr.
I have to place all my hopes on this cause i think i did paper1 badly.=/
School ends at 9.30am tmr. -breakfastttttt (:

Btw i just cant stand PL.
Every year its the same.
They treat us so badly.
And lum said that maybe for O lvls, we have to sit in that hot and stuffy room.
Everyone gets the big aircon hall but we dont.
And the 2 damn aircons are not even working.
OH. And there was this bird chriping non stop during our maths paper.
Disturbed us so badly and my thinking. Lol.

I just wonder how am i going to pass my maths and science and humanities. :(
I dont mean mid yrs but the o levels.

Back ache.

<3333
my sugarrrr* ;;

ILOVEYOUUUU-- 1hr plus of messages. awww. <333

2006-05-15T22:31:00.000-07:00

Everybody needs it
Everybody wants it
Everybody's searching for someone
Been down a thousand highways
I never thought would end
Baby, I've been

[Chorus]
Waiting all my life to find you
Always been one step behind you
Your love babe
I've been waiting all my life

I was tired of waiting
Every night was praying
Everyday would be the day I'd find you
I grew so impatient, how long would it take
To know you were out there somewhere
Somewhere waiting, wondering just like me

[Second Chorus]
I've been waiting all my life to love you
All that time I was dreaming of you
Your love babe
I've been waiting all my life

And did I lose faith, did I lose heart
Maybe I did, but I never lost my way
To where you are-I've been

[Repeat Chorus]

[Repeat Second Chorus]

Your love I've been waiting
Your love I've been waiting all my life
All my life, all my life

*As long as you are happy in life , I'm happy too! (:

exam day 1. i love youuuuuuu - as sweet as SUGARRR! `

2006-05-15T20:52:00.000-07:00

Chinese LC.
` not very sure but quite okay laaa.
Chinese Paper1.
` both questions like never write well enough cause very tired.

Had macs for lunch at sgoon gardens with GF.
Being lame as usual (:
Chris came and we studied.
Did maths until 5.45pm then GF had to leave.
Home.

English Paper1 and Maths Paper1 tomorrow.

--
`sweetmoments* as sweet as sugar*
the best in my eyes* ;;
I cant deny the fact that i actually love you alot.

140506.

2006-05-14T21:56:00.000-07:00

I'm actually in a good mood but suddenly it seems like i am not.
Nth is bothering me but suddenly my world seems like crashing down.
Sometimes i want to smile in msgs but i just cant force myself to type a 'LOL' or 'Haha' .
It's wierd.

Have you ever wondered that this is your blog but still before you type things , you have to consider some things. It's kind of wierd when this is your own blog but you cant type every single thing you want.

I guess i am thinking too much.
I shall head to bed. (:

The week's highlight:
Mon- chinese LC and P1
Tue- english P1 and maths P1
Wed- chinese P2
Thurs- english P2 and maths P2
Fri- social studies
Sat- Literature seminar talk 3pm-4.30pm

purple cow (:

2006-05-14T13:29:00.000-07:00

I found this picture that resembles a friend of mine.
That is of cause the saddist - becca teow. (:

Don't ask me why or what cause only she will understand why and what.
Haha.

Btw, his name is called BECCARY! xD

Colour of dreams ` ;;

2006-05-13T20:29:00.000-07:00

Alright ALL my money has been spent up.
I hope my dad will pity me and share the cost of the vcds with me :(
I left the hse with 100bucks and i came home with 2bucks.
Let me see; I spent 98bucks on getting roses for my mum and on 3 serials and von's choco.
ALL the money that i have saved have all gone down the drain.
I bet my mum will scream when she hears this but i know my dad will support me.
Lols.

Tmr is mother's day (:
Happy Mother's Day to ALL Mothers in the world. =D

I spent my mrng studying at the airport with yong.
Got a lift from her mum then headed down to macs and had breakfast.
Did maths for few hrs and it just killed my brain cells. =/
Wanted to do SS but she wanted to take a walk.
So we walked arnd and looked arnd at the shops then took the sky train frm T1 to T2.
Continued our walk then went to see the planes.
Wanted take some pics for my art but at that point of time , there was only 3 pathetic planes.
The worse thing was , i wanted to take the plane taking off but i followed it with the camera for mins and in the end it just disappeared behind the others and i didnt get to see the take off. :(
Went to buy chocos after that then took 53 down to bishan.
Can u imagine? Its like the WHOLE entire route of the bus 53.
Total time was 1 and a half hrs.
Sat until my back was so aching! =/
Then, felt asleep on the bus.

Walked arnd bishan.
Got the roses and yong got her presents.
Headed to get the vcds and i was lucky as it was the last one. ((:
Wanted to get sketch book but i was broke. =/
Took a cab home.

My shoulders are aching.
I haven started on my SS.
Fran , what r you doing when ur exams are in a few days time!?

And; i just rmbed i have the lit seminar thing on sat 20may.
I even wanted to go out or sleep in.
I shall consider dating my girlfriend. xD

*The little piece in my life <3

2006-05-13T09:50:00.000-07:00

The selfishness in them.
The reason for why i hate this place.

imissyoualottt*:(

yonggggggggggggggggggg! <3

2006-05-12T20:17:00.000-07:00

I suddenly just thought of her. To start this story is going to take years cause she is someone who went through many things with me. Words can never express how much this friendship means to me. She was someone who was always there without fail and someone who tried to help me all the time instead of helping herself. Someone who tried to get all the advices squeezed into my head. Someone who cared for me whenever i needed her... ETC. We played tgh, we studied tgh, we stood by each other, we shopped tgh, we slacked tgh, we went thru happiness and sorrows tgh... ETC. Five longggg years ; she never left me to die alone. In simple , i simply love her more than anything and i believe this friendship will never be forsaken.

I love you dearest! <3

till then;

2006-05-12T12:49:00.000-07:00

I forced myself to get up at 9 to rush with my hwk before tuition at 11 but then she had to postpone it to 3.30pm.
How great can that be and i am freaking tired now.

I'm going to have a maths marathon today :D
and a SS and art marathon tmr.
Lols.

Till then;

NOTE:
I wont be replying msgs as often in the day as i am forcing myself to study for the mid yrs.
Neither will i sign in to msn.
(:

To that puppy of mine`
Hey sorry for dying on you.
I miss you just as much.
*Loves <3

I ADMIT. I reallyyyyyyyyyyyyy loveeeee youuuuuuuu. :(

2006-05-11T14:13:00.000-07:00

After carrying all the heavy books home yesterday, my hands really ache and up to now, i am still feeling the stiff muscles and the pain when i sleep or move. =(

Stayed up till 12plus going 1am with Chongster and Von online.
I think von is 'cute'.
Note: I didnt mean 'cute' but i meant her actions are so naive and 'cute'.
Chongster and i said we were going on hols and von actually believed it.
US: we going on hols.
HER: Where you all going? Buy me dark chocos.
-diaos-
It was seriously hilarious. xD

Slept till 11am this mrng.
My shoulders and arms are still aching. x(
Everyone was having their art exam but i m at home having a 'holiday'. x))
Heading to the doctor later then going to do my art.
I suddenly feel like sketching like nobody's business.
The motivation of art is BACK! (:

Like what chongster said,
It's really like a holiday today! :D

Change of topic:
I'm in fact very happy to have that friendship back,
It may not be as close as before but i m seriously happy to have what we have now.
I hope it will be even better or remain this way forever.
I know you wont read this but i seriously treasure you alotttt.
Takecare and all the best. ((:

From time to time I have regrets
For all the things I didn't say
That were on my list
From time to time my memory slips
But you're the one thing in my life
I won't forget

There'll never be a minute of the day
I won't think of you
My feelings are so strong in me
I feel it through and through
There'll never be a night that's so dark that we won't shine
Or a dream that we've lost that we can't find
You'll always be, oh the one for me
I think of you from time to time
And in between

You'll always be, oh the one for me
I think of you from time to time
And in between
oooo yeah

You'll always be, oh the one for me
From time to time
And in between yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah I do
I think of you from time to time
And in between, yeah

`Just you;
Much loveeee*

GFs studying session pics 090506.

2006-05-10T23:50:00.000-07:00

Taken on` Tues 090506 ;

I love them alotttt <33

100506`;;

2006-05-10T19:56:00.000-07:00

I shall blog in random manner again today.
I feel more comfortable with it. =)

Firstly i got up quite early today and i took the bus to school.
And i was mean to disturb someone cos i know that someone today no school and so i messaged that someone for nothing , just to wake her up. LOL.

School was boring.
Headed to the sick bay with Chong today during lit and chapel.
Had fun resting there although the beds are like not clean enough.
Chatted until 1.30pm then headed back to class.
-Laughs. xD

Cabbed home with cerlyn and manda after school.
I almost died with the amount of books i was carrying and my hands almost broke.
Aching like hell =/
And i dropped my phone in the cab - luckily i found out before i got off or else........ x(

Came home and took a three hour nap.
-Yawns.

Alone at home. (:
I hope my dad finds the vcds for me.

Tmr is mid year art but i m falling sick.
Hope they believe me tmr - my throat hurts.
Alright! That is REAL.

Btw,
I ve a new puppy by the name of JACEEYYY.
Nice name right. xDD
LOL!

Okay i am going to get that counter OFF my blog.
Cause everyone is scolding me.
Lol.
I tried to move it to a less obvious place but cldnt.
So.. nvm.
I ll REMOVE it. (:

Dearest GF`sha.
Yes. This is for you! Cheer up alright and dont think too much. It might not be what we are thinking. Clear your thoughts when you are ready. Smiles* Dont worry, no matter what - we ll be there for you. loves* <3

And no worries , i ll dial your number often when we graduate.
Haha! Takecare babe!

--
That very second was sweet.
Smiles widely =D

hair cut ~

2006-05-09T18:31:00.000-07:00

I m thinking of falling sick tmr.
Anyway i have 3 reasons for not coming on thurs. ((:
I feel so dead and tired these days.
I seriously need some sleep. :(

Off to get a hair cut FINALLY.
It has been two-three mths since i had one.
My hair is growing too slow and i cant wait till june.
From march to april to may to june...
Too long although its just one more mth.
I hope she does a good job. :(

Anyway my phone died on me again.
Yst it was from FULL to NOTHING and today it happened again.
I better charge it thru out the night today. =/

So my day was terrible.
I was rather lucky to catch a cab at the last minute and i made it to school on time. (:
Next, the atmosphere was so sleepy.. everyone was sleeping at 740am and so my day had a bad start and thru out the day, i was sleeping. How great.
Finally that woman is on MC , had a free period. Haha.
Headed to Hlm with the GFs after school to eat and study.
It was bad. Nth went into our heads. :(
Had macs then headed to the CC opp. but there wasnt any space so headed back to macs.
Helped qz solve math ques - i feel so smart. lols =x
Chatted and snapped pics then left at about 5plus.

Back aches.
So tired! :(

Exams are starting on monday and what have i studied?!
Nothing.
-looks at the counter-
-looks away-

Okay it's time to go,
Gdbye!

2006-05-08T23:43:00.000-07:00

I am silly to think of some many things.
She said its simple
Yet i thought of it in a complicated way.
Great.
Now i must learn to forget everything.

It aches
and My headache is back.

Maybe by putting my phone to silent
I can actually act ignorant to the whole world
I hope someone can cheer me up now

I dont understand why people can act when they have things to say
I hate it as i ve to act along .
So pain

I am tired
Gdnight

im sorry. im really sorry.

2006-05-08T18:21:00.000-07:00

Those tears are starting to build up as i hear those sad love songs.
I cant afford to make another mistake.
Cld anyone help me.

Mixed feelings when i experience the truth
when i read those
when i see those
yet i cant express it in words

im feeling a little broken
was i right to say all those this mrng

I tried to ignore the truths
But i realise i am falling again
Will you teach me how to stand up again
Guess no.
Thank you for showing me how much those regrets will hurt.

Yes. No one will know.
Those words just cant express
how much i actually miss you
and how much i actually hate them for breaking us apart.
Misunderstandings,
Thats all i can say.

Yes. Its too late.
Way too late for anything to happen.
Gdbye.

` I cant afford to go through so many misunderstandings anymore.

JOYCELYN and FRAN ` pics and neos. ((:

2006-05-08T17:43:00.000-07:00

Joy and Fran (:
` Taken in the cab on the way home.
` Taken on 5th may at cine.

misunderstandings. 1yr 6mths ago ..

2006-05-08T17:31:00.000-07:00

I'm enjoying my parents love recently. (:
One example; I had huge craving for KFC in school this mrng and no one was free to go with me so i msged my dad to buy for me if he happen to pass by kfc and my parents bought it for me when they came home. Yum yum.. :D

But somebody out there in this world is kind of jealous that my mummy loves me more than her. (:

Right, JACE ?! =)

Anyway i cldnt fall asleep last night but then kept forcing myself and then i cldnt wake up this morning. =/ Cldnt catch a cab so took a bus to school instead. I arrived at a nice timing. (: Firstly, the guard gave me the wrong form and i just acted as nothing happened so i managed to skip late-coming. Oopsie. =X Then when i went to class and found out that Lum wasnt there yet. ((:

Walked all the way to the next bus stop cos we missed the bus and i admit it is sure tiring. Jas winz and i were taking huge steps and luckily we managed to catch up with the bus. Such a hot weather. =/

Spent my day in class msging JACE and it made my phone from FULL bar to NO bar. How great. Anyway she is studying now and she claims im disturbing her. Lol.

I admit it is too late. Way too late.
Thank you for telling me that.
I guess i wasted so much time explaining things which wld come to nothing.
Call me silly then.

Anyway tmr gonna head out to study with GFs` jacx and sha. (:
Shall really study tmr!
Btw , thanks my dear jacx for that sweet and letter of concern.
Love you darling!<3

Btw, My fashion show is showing the last esp. today.
Awww. I m going to miss it.

im gg to die very soon. i fuckin hate u.

2006-05-07T22:07:00.000-07:00

This time i m really going to die.
Can anyone teach me how to live on and take it as nothing has happened.

This time i m really going to break down.

To _:
Pls stop mentioning about her already.
I guess you should know why. :(

sparklesofglamour_@hotmail.com ``NEW EMAIL.

2006-05-07T20:02:00.000-07:00

The truth will come to light one day;

I made my stand and told _ that i didnt want to go cause i am very keen on avoiding and getting out of her life.

I hate seeing you.
I hate laughing with you.
I hate being with you.
All bcos i hate the relationship of us.
I dont want to stay this way.
I dont want to be just a normal friend.
Guess the only way is to let go totally first.

Life still goes on for me.
I know jealously is in the way again.
I wished i could turn back time.
But i know i can never and i have to stay this way forever.
I really miss you.

NOTE:
Change of email.
sparklesofglamour_@hotmail.com

2006-05-07T14:05:00.000-07:00

GB Formal and Informal Photos 2005 ` ;;

070605` ;;

2006-05-07T14:00:00.000-07:00

I simply hate the internet now.
It keeps dying on me. Esp. today.

Tuition at 3.
Sian.

Mixed feelings
Yet no one knows

I wasted another weekend.
Let's count from 1st jan 2006 till now...
I wasted 18 weekends which i planned to study but i didnt.

Chongster and i have decided to go for the art mid yr empty-handed.

I cant stand the way i am blogging today
but i m too lazy to think of how i should link sentences and phrase them.

Yst ;
Chatted with GF in the afternoon for an hour plus then she went to study.
Came home and chatted with her again for like hours - about 2 or 3hrs plus.
Ended the call around 1.15am then watched tv and went to sleep.
I love those talks with her. (:
And we2 feel a certain clique cant make it cos all of them are so ugly and yet they think they are the greatest and prettiest.
Hey, Stop bitching around ! lol.

Mid yr exams starts on the 15th and ends on the 19th
Chinese Os are on the 29th.
A new month then arrives and then time starts to run out.
Stuck on my O level art and time is really running out.
Inspiration , where are you.

This is SOOO random.
Dont bother reading.
Gdbye.

sinyong and fran. true pals in life. <3

2006-05-06T17:44:00.000-07:00

Those studying sessions with her ;
*Someone whom i treasure alot.

2006-05-06T15:00:00.000-07:00

Blast The Music;

That is what i do when i m pissed or bored or seriously have nothing to do. (:

I haven been blogging and the reason is cause i m lazy and there is nothing to update.
Life can be boring.
Example: Waking up at 6plus and rushing to school then study and study until 145 then the bell goes off and everyone starts to pack their bag and all leave the school. HALF the day is GONE. If there are plans then everyone ll go out and stuff then head home at night and then after awhile its sleeping time and then the day comes to an end and tmr arrives.
How boring and random can all these be.

Girlfriend asked me out today to study but i m pretty lazy.
Its going to be a day at home for me.
Perhaps to blast music , do art research , surf the net , go thru my ss book , do up some sketches , laze arnd the hse , catch my fav. shows .... etc.
And i m doing some catching up with my dearest worm whom i miss ALOT. =D
*Cheer up OKAY?! (:

Yst was my nu-er's seventeen! :D
Happy Seventeen My Dearest Daughter! (Jasmine*)
Loads of LOVE and MISSES*
Takecare!! <3

For once i made the right choice of taking the bus instead of taking the cab.
Yst i took the bus home and i reached home at 220+ but when i msged joycelyn , she said she was still waiting for cab outside sch.
Anyway i got home and got ready and went down to my mum's office to get some cash.
I almost got lost and i simply hate chinatown - whats the stupid use of Exit A , B , C , D , E ...
Met my mum then headed off to PS to meet joycelyn.
Saw Caishan there and then went with joycelyn to meet her friend then headed off to town.
The worse thing is , my heels strap broke. =/ and i was like some cripple but lucky i was with her. Haha.
Hunted for shoes and her wallet at wisma, taka and metro then luckily she spotted miss sixty has safety pins on their clothes and i did the worse thing - i took their safety pin for the heel strap. (:
Then headed to heeren to shop for her wallet and she took a long time to decide.
Headed to take neos at cine and it was so fun and we were like fooling arnd. Heh.
Walked her half way to somerset mrt then parted cos she had to go work then i went to meet meishi and went partyworld and meet GF.
The aircon was so nice but slowly started to feel cold. Lol.
Had to leave at 9 cos of smth at home then GF sent me to catch a cab home.
Got home and watched tv and kept nodding off then finally went to slp at 1130 aft my show.

Then now again , GF called again asking me to go heartland to study.
Lol. I guess i m seriously and extremly lazyyyy!

Munching On Chocos;

// I can see you are hurt , yet i cant reveal myself and tell you the things i want to tell you.
I was seriously smiling in my heart when _ told me about you yst.
But thinking again , whats the point of being happy.
The girls arnd you will never be me.
I am not like those sec1s sucking their ass up to you.
I will just silently sit beside you.

I hope one day you will know everything.
Just hope i can see that smile on your face every single morning.

fashion rules my head.

2006-05-03T23:51:00.000-07:00

Suddenly;
I thought of you.
I started to think of you and miss you.
If you ever tell me , you miss your ex or you miss your ex crush
- i wld tell you ''i understand.'' (cos i really do).
Although many of them are just short and now everyone are just ''hi bye friends'' but still there is smth there that ll make you think bout it.

Talking about you, we have drifted real real real reallll far. We no longer make time for each other. There are many people coming in btw but there is nothing i can do. Yes , we are just friends but in fact, i know we are not ordinary friends. You are someone i can actually treat like a loved one even after everything but many things have changed. And i know things will just continue this way and it will never be the same again. At least i know you are different from the rest cos i treat you different. - you are not the ordinary ex but i know we share smth special and you ll always be that special friend of mine.

I know one day we will just lose contact and lead our own lives. It will happen very soon. And i would like to thank that ~~special one~~ who broke us apart and tore us apart and after everything , you come up to me and say , '' dont worry .. you still have me. '' Come on, cut the crap. I ve seen your true colours and if you do not know , i can see things very clearly- eg. who is true and who is fake. I m just very thankful to you for stabbing me and letting me know what the world is like.
On the other hand , my dearest loved one - i hope i hope i hope and i pray that one day everything will be solved and we will be alright (just like what we were before) . But perhaps it will never happen cause of everything that has happened thru out these yrs. No worries , i ll always wish you the very best.

Dear blogger, thank you for hearing me out. Its hard to express but thanks for letting me express something at least.

2006-05-03T16:09:00.000-07:00

I almost suffocated in the toilet this mrng.
I was there frm 745-835. until my partner came to look for me.
How crap and the chem test sucks.
Failure failure... =/
Anw the cause of hidin in the toilet was cos i wrote a wrng name for late coming and i cldnt go bk to class.
Well after partner came, we went to the front gate to write dwn my real name den i cld go back to class.
Hee. Not for the test - i wont even need to do all this. =/
Btw chen lao shi is nice to let me off for late coming - she was in a gd mood when i spoke to her (:

Boring lessons...
And tmr is thurs.. art art art ..
Urgh!

Btw GF has her hp back and i was so happy 2 receive her msg. The reason was bcos i wanted to tell her things yst but i cldnt contact her. =/
Girl, see how impt ur msgs are. Lols.

And to that girl who sent me 6msgs last night (:
` cheer up and dont be so upset.. the feeling will fade one day.. if it really happens, we all ll be able to see her true colours
and then we ll noe how true she can be. To think everyone thinks we understand her well but in fact we both noe how true she
can be at time. well cheer up alright and dont break down! anything can always msg me (: love you darls! <3

may 2nd.

2006-05-02T17:00:00.000-07:00

Gd news is` the teachers dunno i failed napfa 2.4km so i ve hope on not retaking. (:
Bad news is` the sch hol on 9th may will be cancelled. Crap :(

School was the same.
And tmr will be the same too.
And the next day too.
Btw i didnt go and find m.goh cos what if she doesnt noe , den wont i be stupid to stab myself in the back?!
So decided to wait for them to find me. (:
Anyway, Regina finally passed me some belated presents!
Haha anyway thanks girl! (:
Well got chocos from my dearest protector too!
Thanks alot! :D
Well well.. cheer up girl! Takecare!

Oh. I saw a veryyy cute GM sec1 boy on my way home. His shirt is like thousand times bigger than him and he walks like some gangster but he looks so cute. On the other hand, he is so small in size. Haha!

My dearest GF got her hp confiscated and it is like the end of the world for me.
LOL! okay its not the end.. its 1/4 of the end of the world for me cos i cant contact her anymore.
I cant msg her when i m bored.
I cant msg her when i need her.
I cant msg her when i need a listening ear.
SEE! This is how impt my GF is to me.
HAHA! :D

Macs delivery lunch for me (:

Lots of assignments to complete.
So.. gdbye!

*True Love Does Exist!
*Loving a person has no reason!

--
Today my handphone hanged again and a very old msg came in..
At first i tot why would he msg me but it was a false alarm..
Anyway i off the phone and on it again and forgot about what happened a sec ago..

2006-05-01T00:02:00.000-07:00

Welcome To The Month Of MAY! :D
Four mths have just gone by in a flashhhhh!
Now not only those who view my blog are scared of the timer.. i m afraid of it too!
Not for the replying of comments , i wont even come in here to scare myself! =/

Well. I slept about 12hrs today.
Got up at 1plus cos i had tuition at 3.
I wanted to stay up tonight but i feel sick.
Anyway the headache is back!
I m off to sleep!

Btw,
I ve some plans.
I decided to throw shopping aside , i m not in the mood for it now.
Anyway. Tmr is a holiday! Yay! I get to sleep in but on the other hand, i cant cos i ve tests to study for... =/
Then again , 9may i think will be a day off from sch cos of the stupid election thing.
The election thing ll be held on a sat in PL too. If only its a wkday.
Anyway the main pt is ... i decided to give my art mid yr paper a miss .
I seriously ve no mood for it. I want to drop it but i cant.
Who cares.
If every single plan of mine goes well.. i think i ll be only attending sch for a day?!
Craps.

Once again,
Happy Birthday Jaceeee! :D

---
~~I happened to scan thru my albums and i came across many pics designed for someone.~~
At first i thought it was for her or smth.
But then i saw the date, it was written and designed for him.
How crappp. Anyway this is just RANDOM. lol.

'have a happy day' (:
*melts

i need love.

2006-04-29T23:13:00.000-07:00

Finally i am blogging after dunno how many days la.
Now i m freezing in this stupid yet cosy room of mine. :D
I so love my room and house now.
My aunt passed her furnitures all to us and its like all new and mths back i wanted them so badly and now my wish has finally came true cos its all mine now. - okay i mean its my family's one now. (:

Check out my Girlfriend's blog. (:
I changed the skin for her and i so love her template.
But i cant have it cos she was the one who found it.
Lols.
http://0nlyeu-jacx.blogspot.com/

Anyway life has been alright for me.
Just a little bad.
To sum up a bit. -

Thurs.
Had school then maths remedial then stayed back with GF and chris till 5plus. Tried to study but i couldnt concentrate cos GF was doing her lit in a noisy environment. Anyway came home after that.

Fri.
Sort of a very bad day. Yes, i got into trouble again. I know this time my rank is gg to fly away if the news spread. Firstly i repeated my mistake again during recess and i know i was seen - so there is no way i can escape from that woman-G** again. Well - its bout cutting queue. Second bad thing happened was, i attempted to cheat. Ok thats bad. And the worse thing is , it involves that ferng woman. I did rather she let my geog tr handle than she giving my name to that woman- G**.

Whatever it is, this time it made me stop to think about all the mistakes i made in sec sch. And i suddenly feel like im hurting my parents so much. Usually i dont even care about what i do in school , even if i kenna any trouble , i dont even give a damn but now i suddenly feel that i should stop all these. Have i become more sensible?! Lols. The funny thing is- I started a record in sec1 then i was lucky to keep things clean but then i had to have another one in sec5. Its like the beginning and ending yrs of my sec sch life. Lol Well, With that ferng around, confirm wont so easy be let off one. Just wait and see. I m not afraid of having it but i m just afraid how am i gg to face my parents. Sigh.

Yes. I ll not repeat again.

Anyway i just felt a little out last night and this mrng.
Thanks to becca.t who was there to hear me out. (:
*Loves!

Well well- Anyway back to topic, headed with GF to my protector's hse. Lols. Ate macs and watched final destination3. It isnt scary but its gruesome. Lols. And all just die die die... hahaha! Played com and slacked till 8plus then headed home. Bathed and watched tv then chatted awhile with GF and then the phone cut off again. Lols. zZzz ..

Sat.
Headed for eng tuition in school. At first i didnt want to go but just needed peace but in the end i still went. =/ Went to meet yong after that. Headed to hlm delifrance to study and eat. Did chinese till 2plus i think then felt like sleeping so we headed upstairs to walk. She bought stuff then after that went walking arnd and ended up in 7-11 eating. She is so tempting! Haha. (: Left with no where to go so came back home arnd 4plus.

*I really dunno how to handle this.
I am falling deeper each day.
I know all along i have been cheating myself but what can i do.
I knew i cldnt forget you yet i forced myself.
How much force i tried was useless cos now i m back here again.
Teach me to let you go.
Teach me to forget you and that smile of yours.
I really miss/love/need you. :(

HUNGER STRIKE. =/

2006-04-26T21:01:00.000-07:00

Great i took a nap at 5plus 6 and now i m up awake at 830. (:
I am hungry but there are some ppl in my house and i dun wish to leave the room.
On the other hand, i feel like starving.
I dunno why im starving these days. -madness. =/

Btw, girlfriend is supposed to call me or rather come online to talk.
but she seems to have disappeared and i dun feel like making the effort to call her.
Haha.
On the other hand, im always being made use by her.
She told me , she told ppl that she is going out with me on fri.
Crap!

-Third post of the day.
-Able to take a nap.
-Able to stay online till now.
CONCLUSION- I decided not to do my art. (: I decided to do it tmr during lesson time and its so obvious i cant finish it in 5periods but it is okay cause i dun plan to bother bout my mid yr art CA. (:

Fran will start studying. (:

Common tests next week.
Geog test on fri.
Mid yrs in mid may. - eng chinese lit ss.
Chinese Os in may.

Busybusybusy-- if im not in here often means i ve started studying. Hope it starts tmr. LOL.

And yes i completed the PAIR work of nana's and mine -lit powerpoint.

2.4km tmr.
SIAN.
when i feel like running, she dunwan to run. when i feel like slacking, she makes us run.
She even said we ll fail if we dont train.
Miss wadsoever.. i ve never failed my 2.4km alright. It is whether i wan2 run anot.
u damn bitch.
And yes we love to go against her in every lesson.
Pat rocks. Fran rocks. Lols! =)

at least she noes bout u... but she doesnt even noe bout me.. and never will noe. hw much i miss you.-sad-

2006-04-26T17:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder why is A jealous over C cos of B
when D is jealous over B cos of C
A is rather lucky cos at least she has a part of B
D dont even have a part of C

sad case...

2006-04-26T16:49:00.000-07:00

I'm pretty lazy to do my art.
I was thinking should i just leave my marks as it is and study first then do my art only after my mid yrs.
Btw i got 98 for art (:
But its nothing happy - cos its NOT over 100. Its over 300!
LOL.

Yes. i failed my mid yr CA but i dont even give a damn.
Haii. I am so slack.

I hate seeing you everyday.
I miss you so muchhhh and i cant do anything! :((

--
Some web is making me laugh.
They said one of photo looked like won bin.
OMG. hahahaha! yes i like him but pls.. 56% like him?!
Dream on. =/

http://www.myheritage.com

INEEDABREAKNOW.GIVEMEGIVEMEGIVEME.

2006-04-25T18:13:00.000-07:00

iNEEDaBREAK.whyWONTyouGIVEmeANY~

vvvvvvvvv tired . tired of sch. life. love. friends. the world. the cruelty. the faked humans. the blood in humans. everything in this world. i need u

2006-04-24T22:38:00.000-07:00

My blog page is taking years to load.
Anyway i intended to do some studying this afternoon but i ended up falling asleep infront of the tv.
Yes. I am very very tired these days.
Klara actually sat beside me during chinese today and i dunno why on earth did i let her.
She was messing up Partner's and my table.
Waking me up every second when i try to sleep.
Disturbing me every second when she was unoccupied.
Well due to that , i was so dead tired the entire day cos i didnt get a chance to sleep.
And , I actually felt into deep sleep during biology today. =/

Haven been eating well these days.
As i said before.. my eating routine is all up side down.
And i only had recess and a cup of maggie noodles today.
Hungry yet dunwan to eat. I did rather sleep all my life.
: (

This mrng i got up at 645-650 and out of the toilet only at 7
Got ready and left the hse but i decided to miss 3-4 '53' buses.
Listened to mp3 at the bus stop and i actually felt into deep thoughts.
I wonder why am i going to school for.
I dread the thought of it.
I did rather quit studying - random thought.
And i actually pitied a kindergarden kid cos she still has a long way more to go.
Unlike me.. im already living here in this world for 17yrs.

Dread ~

And GF actually made me watch final.dest 3 with her.
And i dun ve a choice.
Fancy asking me along all the time. =/

--
And yes i was acting dao infront of **.
Anyway ** does that to me every single day.
Without _ arnd , ** wont even talk to me.
But _ purposely called me and made me happy cos ** was just beside _ . (:
*iloveyou and imissyou.

MANGO. ZARA. SHOPPING. =D

2006-04-23T14:27:00.000-07:00

Back then i wish i could cure your pain
But now i wish you could cure my pain
I miss you alot and i really do.
*Thinking of you and loving you `

---

I showed my mum the mango book (:
Her: Where did you go?
Me: Mango.
Her: eh i like this and that ...
Me: eh i like this and that other one also.
Dad: are they very ex or what..
Her: no la. can la.
Me: ya lor.. go with her , sure can afford.

((:
She didnt claim the stuff is ex means i still have hope going shopping with her.
But i asked her this mrng if we cld go shopping on 1st may - the one and only holiday left before my exams and she said no at first but later she somehow changed her mind. I shall keep my fingers crossed and hope she will bring me on a spree! (:

And yes i ve decided to STUDY this time ! I will do well or rather i ll do my best. I ll not just read through and hope that i ll pass anymore. Time is running out.

May God Bless That My Motivation DOESNT Run Out Any Time Near Mid Yrs. (:

2006-04-22T23:26:00.000-07:00

And stupid jace wants me to wish her 'happy birthday' here.
Such a waste of space! =/

Alrights , This is for YOU! (:

HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY TO JACEEEEEEYYYY! :D
BIG BOY ALREADY!
FASTER GROW UP AND STOP ACTING LIKE A KID!
RMB TO LIVE IN REALITY AND NOT IN DREAMLAND - THINKING EVERYDAY IS UR BIRTHDAY! X))

LOVE YOU DEAREST!
<3

great. im into deep love depression once again and the answer/cause is you again. after a long ... 6mths.

2006-04-22T23:11:00.000-07:00

I still rmb the times when i fell head over heels for you.
It was about 8mths back.
But about 6mths back , i forced myself to get over you cause i knew there wont be any outcome.
During the 6mths,everything went fine and you were just a normal friend to me but never did i expect ... -
Abour 6mths later ; the present today - i actually fell back onto that old route of mine.
And it just seems so hard and difficult to stand up again.
I know you will never know but spending those little moments with you is enough to cure all the pain.
Even a little sentence you said and a joke you shared.
It may sound silly but things do actually happen in such a way.
Your smile never once failed to brighten up my day.

I really miss you alot alot and alottttt now.
But there is no one that i can tell to - cos i ll never take the risk of confessing to you.

If there is a day or time where i can be with you - i believe it will be the sweetest.

---

It has been about a month or so ...
And for the past few days i ve been feeling very very lousy infact.
I just ve the urge to talk to you and even up to the extent of confessing.
I just dunno what the fuck is wrong with me.

---

I ve not been blogging for days but i dont think i am going to continue this now cause i just simply need a break.
Mentally infact.

Maybe i ll do some summing up on the past few days. -

Thurs`
PL didnt allow us to ve electricity on till 1050 in the mrng and i swear it was so warm. Art was slacking for me and handing in hwk that she marked BEFORE - its just for show infact. =/ Didnt do 2.4km cos had a stiff neck. Lol. After school,Had practical exams .chem and bio. it was freaky mann and i hate my sitting position cos its the 2nd person and i m like right infront of the teacher's table and i hate it when they stare as if you are gg to do smth wrong or whatsoever. Anyway i just feel that i am going to fail badly. =/ Anyway went with GF to s'goon garden and had macs for dinner. That gal actually left her hp in school-smart of her. Anyway i was made to wait at macs for her and she took real long... Ate and she was telling me lame jokes which i didnt even understand. The rest is for me and her to know. Lol. Well i didnt ve enough $ for my bus home so i ended up taking a cab and getting my dad to pay. (: Home arnd 8-9plus.

Her: I think i only act dumb infront of you cann.
Her: Imagine i act like that infront of others , i think they ll think i am mad.
Us: -laughs-

There's no link to it bcos i cldnt type smths out here. (:

Fri`
Had the last GB session and this will be the one and only last one. :( There r so much mixed feelings. Its fun when we ve fun together and stuff but on the other hand, its terrible when we ve to attend every fri's session. =/ Anyway this time its really farewell for me. There wont be anymore sessions. Well sec4farewell is on 30th june and perhaps we sho be going. Well yst was boring. Devotion and all... and guess what? we were playing stupid games on our own as usual. Luckily we didnt get scolding this week. The rest had games then we went to class to slack but then were made to go hall and slack there. Played stupid childish games and slacked till we were told to go AVA.T arnd 6plus. Announcements and stuff then left. And we dont ve the gb photo. Its like last yr and it isnt our fault - it was the who ever who said its e wrong photo and said dont place order and then... in the end. fuck. =/ Well headed to heartland with GF , Joce and winz. Had pizza and we were practically laughing all the way.

*Scolds winz for jacx-
Jacx: Eh why nowadays you always help me ah.
Winz: Cos she ur gf right.
Me: ya lor.

*five mins later-
*fights with jacx-
Winz: eh tot u2 couple den still fight.
Me: we break alr wad.

*five mins later-
*shares pizza with jacx-
Winz: eh tot u2 break le.
Me: we2 cannot patch ah.

*five mins later-
*fights with jacx again.

*five mins later-
*laughs with jacx and help her bully winz.

- This just continued on and on .... The joke is about : One min we 'break' , next min we 'patch' . =/
Lol.

Well service there was terrible and yes , i shouted at a waitress. Stupid bitch still diao me when she spill the food on me and she even told the manager its a small piece only. Small piece is not piece? and when i shouted at her.. 'u dont even noe how to say sorry isit' den she stare and diao and walk off. fuck. AND she has a stupid name - called LILYS. ppl called 'lily' , she called 'lilys' . =/ Anw we headed to take neos 2times and the 1st time , it was failure cos we press wrong button when we supposed to choose wad layout we want . it came out one GIANT piece and six SMALL TINY ones. lols. The second one was better. (: Left hlm at 10 then GF came my house. Bathed while she used the net then she left about close to 12 and she reached home in 10mins. I wonder what kind of cab she took. =/ Lol. Went to bed arnd 1230. zzZzz...

Sat`
Woke up late and left the hse late and had to take a cab down to school. Had tuition then left with Sok and Teow for j8. Bought mos into the cinema and caught the show` Eight Below. I think im getting the VCD - i love the dogs! Haha. and yes its such a swt and sad show. :( Well well.. i took a nice pic of the dogs but i went to delete it. Stupid me. =/

After tt , sok left for tuition then teow and me headed to town. Walked arnd and shopped arnd. She is so tempting! I saw sooo much nice things but i cant afford them today. I need to go with my mother and then everything wont be a problem. Lol.

Anyway i saw ...
1. a nice bag at zara.
2. a nice pair of white heels at zara.
3. a nice top at esprit.
4. a nice bag at esprit.
5. many nice tops at mango.
6. a nice bag at mango.
7. a nice wallet at mango.
and the list goes on ..................

AND if i calculate them tgh.. i think it is gg to cost alot and my mother will sure kill me. =/

Well took a break at coffee bean awhile and i embarassed myself. Haha. Anw walked so much .. all arnd orchard. Then finally she decided to cut hair at super cut and i saw this nice style.. so tempting but i didnt. =/ I ll cut in june once my length has grown. :( Poor me. Anyway headed to heeren aft tt and bought stuff and had the noodles there. Left town at about 5plus then i took a cab frm sgoon mrt home and again my dad paid - this time i was having vvv bad cramps. =/

---

Oh and i saw Guo Liang at j8 today and Xiang Yun at wheelock today.

I ve been blogging since 10plus and now its 11plus. Great. Lol. Well i am so tired and i haven done any hwk yet or studies. =/ Plus i ve tuition at 11am tmr. Haii.

A hectic and busy school life i have now.
I cant wait to take a rest in december.

Lastly,
HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN NITEY! =D
And take care and all the best!
*Lovesss <3

practical exams tmr. freaky hell

2006-04-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

A short post meant to vent something.
Not for the art photos - i wont even be coming online today. =/
Busybusybusy... tmr got art and marks will be taken for mid yr CA 30% but this time i m not bothering to do anything.
Main reason cos there is chem and bio practical tmr.
I m like freaking out. I hate practical and there are so much 2 memorise n study.
I am gg to sleep real late and be late tmr. CONFIRM. =/

Well stayed back to study QA with jacx , sha and chris today.
At first cldnt really concentrate but later could a little.
Anyway for the past few days , i didnt even know i had $0 left in my wallet and i was always thinking , i still had at least $2.
How stupid.

Anyway the thing i want to rant about is on you.
I ve this strong feeling that you know.
Yea. it cant be that wrong - i always ve such feelings.
Okay so be it.
I ll force myself to let go.
I will one day.

'thanks' now i know no one can be trusted in this world.
but the funny thing is , throughout all these yrs , i can never be angry with you .
funny. lol.

*imissyou-

haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. =/

2006-04-18T20:06:00.000-07:00

The gentle breeze of the air around me,
The sound of the ocean slowly rolling,
The beauty of the sunset,
The feel of the sand as I walk along a beach,
Can never compare to you.

The sweet smell of a rose,
The kiss of the snow as it falls to the ground,
The bite of the rain as if falls on me spinning in the street,
The love of my family and friends,
Can never compare to you.

Nothing in this world,
Can compare to the way I feel for you..
The way I feel when I'm with you,
Nothing can compare to tour embrace,
I would give everything... to feel... this love,
The love you once had for me,
The love that is drifting farther away from me everyday,
The love that seems to be my life my world, my dreams,
Your love for me... is all I need,
Because nothing... can compare to you.

I won't be blogging much these days.
Lost touch with blogging recently. =/

*I miss you alot and i guess i am back on the old route - loving you like there is no tomorrow but i know you will never know.
Maybe some day... i ll let you understand everything. ... .....

random la.

2006-04-18T20:01:00.000-07:00

170406.
Happy ONE YEAR ONE MONTH Booger-Owner Day!
Booger;
I miss you lots and lovess*
Takecare! Heh. (:
---
NAPFA;
Tired my entire soul out. Body aching and dead beat.
Cabbed all the way home.

180406.
Finally caught up with my dearest daughter`rebekah.
After sooo long - i miss this pretty girl alotttt.
Nice talking to you after so long.
Takecare and we ll do more catching up soon. (:

2006-04-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

why can someone just ask someone to give up so easily.
you have someone who love you but you never learn to appreciate it

Haii. I dont know what i am typing AGAIN.
I like this picture. (:

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thoughts of my own. i duno wad im typin la ---

2006-04-16T00:21:00.000-07:00

This mrng i was thinking about _ and thinking if i dont try , i wont know what changes has happened. But then i snapped back to reality and told myself , i was hurt once and i wont go back to the same person. And also , i want freedom and my own life. I want to have all the time everyday to go out with frens and all. I wont want to be tied down. I guess i m feeling this way cos it has been a long time since i committed myself to someone. I m just tired of that. I love the carefree life im having now. At least im happier. Plus being a crk wont last.

Anw two hrs ago , GF and i were toking on the phone , as USUAL. and then talking about _ and GF's stuff. True enough what we were talking about came true. =/ At first i was like.. oh okay.
But now thinking bout this mrng , if i wld choose to say yes - i wont be really happy cos i know very well what kind of person _ is. And if i were to say no - i wld hurt her but now since she ownself gave up. I m happy for her. (:

Nvm. i dunno wad i m saying anyway.
Lol.

Well a message to my dear girl.f ...
Cheer up.
You still have me.
Tell her what you want to tell her.
It may be hard but it will solve things fast.
Love ya gf. (:

2006-04-15T20:35:00.000-07:00

Everythin is so wrong now.
What is just so wrong with me.

fuck!

yes i m pissed so LEAVE ME ALONE.

2006-04-15T19:36:00.000-07:00

Blasting Of Music
Dropping Of Tears
Hiding Behind That Door
Living My Own Life

Yes i am online.
Yes i am infront of the com.
but i won't be replying.
Maybe i would - depends if i ve the mood to talk to you.
But most likely i think i wont be bothered.

You just pisst me off.
I waited half an hour to cool down before coming in here.
I knw if i came in half an hour back , i wld be scolding lots of vulgarites.
Anyway i really think you are reaching OLD age and i am not kidding.
You just love to think you are right then so be it.
I dont bother.
I ve a room where i can be myself and dont have to give in to anybody in there.
So what if you think you are right - so be it.
Do i look like i care. Yes its full of hurting words and yes its hurting.
But one night sleep i ll be fine.
I m so used to it.
I ve been living in my own shell without your love , care and whatsoever.
I dont need it.
I cant wait to leave this place.
I cant wait to get out of here and lead the life i want.
I rather stay alone and do whatever i want. Rather than having to give in to you all the time.
In the past , i wld shout back and scold whatever i want.
But now , i am tolerating it so much and i am about to burst.
At least i ve learnt to keep it inside me rather than picking a fight with you.
Its ok , go ahead and show whatever love to whoever.
I am so used to it.
17 years of such life- im so used to it.

Now it's time to say something to get it off . Or rather to let go of it.
Fuck off you motherfucker.
And to that son of a bitch.
I dont need such love from a fucker.

You fucker.
Damn you to spoil my mood after such a good sleep.

parents. so wad?! babarian! oi wad oi. fuck you la

2006-04-14T23:38:00.000-07:00

don't be a fucker.
so what if you are my parents.
if you want respect - pls show some respect first.
doesnt mean you are an adult then you can just 'OIE' or shout like a fucker for NO reason.
i wonder when will it get into your head.
don't ever think i need to respect you for who you are.
if you cant respect your own child - dont expect your child to even show you that little respect.

damn you.

out with yong. then jacx n shi (:

2006-04-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

I wasn't late. Yong was the one late and made me wait until the rain got so heavy. Anw i cabbed down to sgoon mrt in the huge rain and i was still drenched. Trained dwn to PS and ate at mos and did some work there. Left arnd 4plus and walked around. Shopshopshop... but guess what i didnt buy any clothes or wad. I got my nu-er 's present cos i know i sure dont have time 2 go out again. (: Well dropped by almost every shop cos we were so bored then went spot light for yong's fnn stuff. Headed to BK to rest then decided to go eat sushi but PS doesnt ve nice sushi so we ended up at swensen. Ate until so full then jacx and meishi came over. Atmosphere was like only laughing ` lols! Ate then sat awhile then left arnd 8plus. After jacx left , something funny happened then meishi also left. LOL. Yong and i were like watching meishi running and all ... until cannot see liao. Like some movie like that. Lol. And yea , jacx called and screamed at me again cos of what i did. LOL. But i just realise why she didnt do her USUAL routine of calling me on her way home. hmms. Haha! Anw yong's mum gave me a lift home. (: Tv and now com.. I am so tired! Now it's bed time!

Gdnight world!
Tmr still gotta head to IKEA =/
Siannn.

(:

RANDOM.

2006-04-12T20:07:00.000-07:00

It's just a random post.
Nothing much to read. You may leave this page now. (:

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO WEI LONG! LOADS OF LOVE N MISSES** <3333

2006-04-11T20:15:00.000-07:00

I'm very veryyyyy tired and i really dont want to blog but i just feel like now cos i just rmbed it's his birthday! (: I stayed up till 12 with Biggie and i msged him. Seriously i was so tired but scared so i cldnt slp but after his msg came in - it was so
assuring and great. I immediately cooled down and smiled to myself. I m glad i didnt lose such a precious friend after this 2mths. (:

Well ,
HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN WEILONG! =DD
TAKECARE AND ALL THE BEST TO YOU!
LOADS OF LOVE AND MISSES* <33

Anw school was fine today - just that i kept falling asleep in class and gave PE a miss. I am freaking tired now. I need a day where i can come home early and rest then start on some revision but i seem so busy everyday. AND tmr i gotta go to the incineration plant trip thing.
It stinks and it ends so late. Such a tiring life i have now. I wonder how will i fare for mid yrs. Terribly bad , i guess. =/ Haiiiix! Well headed to mediacorp with teow after school. Had lunch then took a bus down. AND we took a cab in which didnt jump metre - total fare : 2.40. lol
It was just round the corner. =/ Collected her tix then left and we went down the wrong road tt led us to a dead end and we had to climb up the hill to get out of there. Tiring =/ Took a cab down to thomson plaza cos she needed the toilet so badly! Haha. Haven been there for like yrs alr and it changed alot! Walked arnd awhile then got some things. Left and took a bus down to hg mall for her bubble tea and then we walked arnd and i got a ice cream! Lol so hungry but broke! =/ Then took a bus back home. (:

I am so tired now.
I got lots of hwk and tests to study for.
This wkend must be used well! Esp, the public hol on friday (:

Tatas pple.
*nights!

failure 2 launch.

2006-04-10T23:16:00.000-07:00

Loss of sleep - for you. (:

Happie Birthday PATRINA!
Love ya! HAHA! Takecare and ur OLD! X)
Heh.

I want to watch alot of moviessss but some are already off the cinemas and as for the rest - i dont have the time or the cash to catch them. This is so saddddd! =/ Anyway i caught Failure To Launch with my GF today at bishan after school. (: Ate at macs then did some hwk there while waiting for time to pass! There were 3 boys who sat near us and i think they are mad. Ok they were looking at us - in fact looking at _ . Okay then we two kept turning when they kept looking at us. Its like so obvious , every five mins this guy will turn then he pretend say want to sit inside so he can face outside. =/ Btw they are only in lower sec. The funniest thing is , when GF turn , he faster turn away den when we leaving , GF purposely di-siao him - it was damn funny! x) And , i saw Huiying and her BF. lols.

Btw WC msged me all of a sudden and that shocked me. AFTER SO LONG. Hahaha. Yeah i did miss you and cursing you! Heh heh. =p

Headed to catch the show at 4.45pm. The cinema was freaking cold and the show isnt very fantastic - maybe 3/5 or something like that. I want to watch that yours mine ours that show! But no one wants cause many ppl watch already =x Anyway walked arnd after that then headed home. There was this gross girl sitting infront of me in the bus. She was scratching her head non stop. And after that , she started scratching her back. She was scratching all the way. It was super turn off and disgusting. I wonder how her frenz take it. Yucks! =/

Anyway , tmr is his birthday and i hope that message will help to clear our problems. I really hope the past wont affect the friendship. But guys are often heartless - I am staying up till 12 to wish him but i think he will either just ignore or reply late or just reply one word. I hope he ll at least assure me on what i typed. After all , i got over him already. Hmms.

Tmr i ve to make an impt decision but i decided to follow Sha and Teow to Mediacorp instead of ____. Lols.

Four more days to the wkend.
I need to get down to studying! x(

` I knew this nightmare will come true
fucking gross piece of shit =/

2006-04-09T22:40:00.000-07:00

A misleading post.
LOL :D

I Treasure you <33

2006-04-09T22:36:00.000-07:00

Four years and still counting `

I've been catching up with her very often these days. Every single day we will chat on the phone or in school. Ever since sec3 when we splitted class we didnt have much time for a catch up but we tried to make use of chances. Haha. But who cares bout what people think bout us recently- Yea , I'm proud to say that she is my GirlFriend. (:

Look at this - One year back [the above] and One month back [the below] . :
How much have we changed ?! Hmms.

No matter what .. we go through everything together and i am glad to have you around always.
Love you dear! <33

wadever!

2006-04-08T23:54:00.000-07:00

In Jace's OWN logic - She claimed that 7th of april was her birthday.
90th Birthday i think.
So i am forced to wish her in my blog.
Whatever!

Happy 90th Birthday JACEY! :D

Her next birthday is on the 1st of may.
I think she will be celebrating her 100th birthday by then.
Whatever!

im very lazy 2 blog these days and i guess i m too lazy -

2006-04-08T22:16:00.001-07:00

//EDIT-

I'm getting lazier these days. =X
And the exams are approaching - have i started anything!?!
HAHA. No! =/
Anyway i studied abit today and did my homework.
Well not very productive cause macs was too cold but well .. i still did something. (:

Oh yes to add in.. I lunch-ed at the HK Cafe at heartland yst. ((:
My first time there but i love the food alot!! =D
And i like the seats too. haha.
Shall go there with sy more often!
Heex.

Frannnnnn ! When are you going to sit down and study!
It's the last year already!
You can't give up now!
*motivation motivation ... where are you?! :(

Well - talked to GF for awhile just and now i am back here blogging but i forgot what i wanted to say. Never mind. I ll shall end off.

But before doing that - 090406 (:
Happie 17th AMANDA! =D
Loads of love and missesssss* from me to YOU! <3333
Takecare!

The most true and everlasting friendship :D

** Talking about friendship -
I am missing you everyday.
But i know it's all over. Hope everything is fine for you.

2006-04-06T22:48:00.000-07:00

I hope tmr will be better :(

a bad day. a depressing day. a fucked up day.

2006-04-06T20:00:00.000-07:00

Happy 16th WEILAN! =D
Stalker! Dearie! Hahaha! x)
Takecare and all the best!
Time to grow up already lerh! (:
Misses and Lovesss*

Not a very good day to start off infact. =/
Got up at a real late timing then met up with phoebe and shared cab with her , marisse and janilyn to school.
We were like late but nvm... haha! we were so happy when we saw no prefects. Lol. We thought we were early but no... Lol.
Went for assembly then talked thru out silent reading. Haha.
Then chatted with GF awhile in class.
*Then smth spoilt my mood.
AND all the things that happened all at one time had to make me stop to think.
The feeling was so sucky!
Hmm.. i just felt like tearing at a point . Hai. =/
Lessons were so longggg and boring.
Felt into deep sleep during math half way through.
Had holocaust presentation after school. I was like shaking and heart beating so fast. =/
Cabbed home.

I need a big break now at the moment. :(
I am glad - tmr is friday!
At last!
But there's math test tmr. Freaky!

I need cash.
I need time.
I need a break.

*Take me away on a holiday pls > ?!

2006-04-05T19:30:00.000-07:00

Chocolates from the past. Now into the present.
Hmms.

I miss my Girlfriend and Mummie! :((

GF:
I cant wait for monday's date! We have lots to catch up! AND please please stop mentioning about ___ before i go back down that road! Lols! Love you! xD

MUMMIE:
I promise to save up lots of money and then we will go shopping , chilling , dining and all the crap that we can think of! Let's faster save save save!!! I love you! (:

* 6days more to your BIG day!

Happie 17th birthday!

I am very happy to find out who she is.

All the best! (:

` I am very happy for you!

Happie 18th meishi!

2006-04-03T19:32:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder
Why do you love her so much
I wonder and wonder

*Are we gonna be strangers on that long and narrow road ;

personal thoughts.

2006-04-02T13:15:00.000-07:00

I think i am wierd.
I eat only a tiny slice of bread when i m supposed to have a good breakfast.
Then i ll be hungry in school and i eat alot during recess. [can ask the clique that.]
Then i ll eat in class. *oops.
Then i ll come home without eating lunch when i am supposed to be having lunch.
Then i ll eat very little at dinner and eat alot of rubbish at around 9plus.
Then i ll go to bed.
I think my diet is a little wierd and the timings are all wrong.
Lol.

Mid years are starting in may.
I think i am going to flunk my practicals B A D L Y .
I ve so much work to complete.
Plus i have tuition later.

I can't wait to leave the school education.
I seriously hate exams and studying.
Going to school five days a week can seriously kill. :(

I think i won't be coming online as often anymore.
It's time to hit the books and it isn't very early anymore.
I just found out - i wasted three precious months.
Tsk tsk tsk .

Gdbye.

-fallin into deep sleep

2006-04-01T20:49:00.000-08:00

I can't hold on any longer and i don't know what's the problem.
A BIG sigh -

My mum had a talk with me.
A short conver. but it caught me thinking.
Now i really got to work hard and pass well.
I hate it when i see myself slacking away.
I need to pass - pass well.

I need a break.

Sometimes i see everyone in hand and i start to wonder ......

Why did so many things happen in the past.

Yea - I said 'past' so it means past.

Why do the one you love vanish but the one who you don't love appear ........

310306

2006-03-31T22:53:00.000-08:00

JOYCELYN.
Happy 17th!
NI LAO LE!=D
Takecare and all the best! (:

Today is finally FRIDAY.
I ve been waiting for like yearssssss for F R I D A Y to come. (:
For once, there's NO cca today!
Lunch at macs then came back and slacked.
I didnt study again =/
Had a 2hr talk with GF.
I m feeling great again after all the chatting and crapping with her!

Chatting with althea for like almost one hour plus alr.
I think i m drivin her nuts by making her kill herself. Lol.
I am just being lamer than her! Haha!
Well off to sleep soon!
Gdnights! (:

I need my art back so badly.
And its making me pisst somehow.
Contact me asap ?! (:

-.

2006-03-30T23:14:00.000-08:00

Art was rather slack today.
Next week it's no longer J.Wong already.
Back to the stressful Ong. x(

Bible quiz today.
Went in late - super late.
Did chem and maths and read a book. (:
PEACE won after sooo long. -never ONCE right?! hahas x)
Home with winz n althea.

I just read Jiayu's testi to me.
AND memories came back!
GIRL, I miss you so much! I miss working life too! :(
Thinking back , it was so funny!
Rushing to work.. thinking of what to wear.. msging each other bout where we are.. hoping to meet at dhoby ghaut.. thinking bout lunch when it's only 9am.. checking our partners for the following days.. having ice cream after night shift.. smsing each other when we are at diff. counters.. gossiping and all.. ETC ETC ..
I REALLY MISS IT SO MUCH! =/

I think i am a little HIGH tonight.
I was crapping when ppl were being serious in the conversation. LOL.

Dearest Girlfriend , this msg is specially for you. Hope that you could cheer up and smile once again. You are someone that i can rely on for a smile or joke. Whenever i m sad and the first person i ll msg , it ll be you cause ur reply ll always make me smile and laugh to myself. I really treausre this friendship of 5yrs alotttt! Hope that you ll smile once again. Those are just somethings in life that are bothering us - dont bother or care! dont stress urself. It ll be over soon! Just rmb , no matter wad .. i m just a call / message away from you. Takecare of urself and stop worrying so much! Although i often laugh and hope that thing ll come true but after wad u told me, i realise i understand tt too and been thru it b4 too.. and anyway of cos.. wadever it is.. i ll of cos support your decision. Need my help ?! any time! =D rmb what we said.. 24/7 for each other. U are someone i treasure , trust and love alot too! Hope leaving sec. sch wont drift us apart! LOVE YOU DARLING! <<<333333

Dearest Mummie [sy] , i love you too! YOU KNW THAT! Whatever it is.. you and jacx both stand an impt role n part in my life. Whatever i said to her above , is also meant for you too! 24/7 JUST FOR YOU TOO! <<<3333333

29th. - looks away -

2006-03-29T22:11:00.000-08:00

I tend to look away but i know i have to face it.
29th once again.
But this time , he will be calling her 'dear'. (:

I was stalked during recess!
Guifeng was nice to inform me AFTER they filmed finish.
I feel like stealing the tape and smashing it.
Lols =x

Bible quiz tmr.
I wanted to give it a miss but bcos of the rank - i chose to go. =/
I am gg to go thru round FOUR of stress again. i swear.
Ms ho talked to me yst bout trying the sgt rank thing AGAIN.
From sec3 until now - i m so tired of it but who won't want it ?!
I told her, they always stress me until i just give up.
But this time , i hope i ll make it.
HQ doesnt allow me to take over jinhua or cheryl's place for the april. conference.
SO THAT MEANS - I ve to go in june ALONE. =/
I know i m mean but i hope someone in 4th coy doesnt turn up on that day [8/4] .
HAHAHAHAHA! Oopps*

Ong is coming back to school next week. Art art art art ....
I m going to work on it during the weekends.
I suddenly have some inspiration n motivation to do so.
LOLS. =)

Gdnite.

cip.

2006-03-28T20:43:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PARTNER! =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINA! =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! =D
Lolsss! TC. Cya tmr! *loves! <3

Today's events.
School.
CIP.
Home.

CIP was so tiring. But i think the uncle is nice! (:
Half the time , i was doing all the talking and all. MichelleGoh was nice by making sure he doesnt fall. but what about SOK AND REBECCA.T ??!! Laughing! =x

I almost died while waiting for the 315 and 53.
IN THE END - I took a cab home. (((((:
It was like HEAVEN to me when i got into it! The cool aircon and comfy seats!
Shiok! =D

*headacheeeee !! ~